here's your freakin title...

Jan 22, 2009 02:33


finally had a conversation. which resulted in an awkward dinner. but hey, it's a step..and she can't say i didn't try.

i really really REALLY want to do this national student exchange. especially with krystal. spending a semester at another school in another state sounds like just what i need right now. and it really comes at an oppurtune time when looking at the big picture of things. people keep asking me why i'd want to do this...i say why not?! when would i ever get a chance to just live somewhere else with my best friend for 6 months without all the complications that would come after graduating? and really, i have nothing in fort wayne that i need to stay here for. in fact, getting away from it could be the best thing ever for me.

speaking of..we haven't talked in 2 days...you didn't respond when i asked you a question on sunday night. and after talking on monday, when i bluntly told you i was upset..you had no response or inquiry to why. it's becoming apparent that you don't care. so why do i?  i keep telling myself i won't talk to you first. and so far, i've done great with it. so lets just see how long you go without me...i have so many things i want to say to you right now...like how i know i could do better and idk why i've held on so long. but i guess it really is true when they say that sometimes silence speaks louder then words.

i love my classes this semester. i've made friends in almost all of them so far (especially the cute boy in 2 of my classes!). i'm actually excited about my major and my career goal..hopefully it turns out as great as i envision it.

at the moment, i'm excited for the future.
at the moment, just being excited excites me.
i just need to keep finding things to look forward to..that's what keeps me going.
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