the heart within...
well....lets start from the beginning....
do we all remember daniel? a little refresher..... remember psycho ex-boyfriend?
yeah... well... dan was the guy who was 'fixing' it all. in short, fixing me...
and we were very close. i considered him one of my best friends.... there was
always this attraction between us, but c'mon, i sooooo wasn't ready. but he was.
so... he said he couldn't see me anymore, and that was that. i wasn't allowed to
be near him... and i felt that was not right, so i kept going round. it all
ended at a party i had, a massive drunken fight... and he said that either we
were together or that was it, cause it wasn't fair to him for me to keep him
hanging on.... we didn't speak for about 3 or 4 months.
THEN.... CHAPTER 2...
i called him... and we started hanging out. he was still in the same position...
but i thought i was all cured of my ex-bf and agreed that we would... could...
be together. but it went downhill FAST. he had changed, i had changed... and as
much as i thought it would all be good, it wasn't. i was still one very very
confused girl. so i broke up with him, effectively crushing his heart for a
second time... i felt bad, but i also felt freaked out.
the last time we talked... well.... sms'ed was before i left for europe. i
invited him to my farewell party and he sent me a message saying "i'm not
coming. it would be uncomfortable" and i was like "i miss you, i wish you'd
come". he didn't show up.
so i thought about him quite a bit in europe... and i'm still thinking about
him. see, dan is the kinda guy you marry. he's the kinda guy who'll take care of
you, love his kids, go to work everyday, hold your hair back when you vomit and
still tell you you're pretty (from experience)... hes a good guy.. and i miss
him. so i wrote him a note and mailed it to him. he should have gotten it by
now. nothing special.. just saying hi. miss you, heres my new mobile number and
i'm having a bbq on the 31st... no response as yet :(
soo... advice? ezza feels sorry for the boy, she thinks i should just leave him
alone already... but i'm kinda thinking that if i'm still thinking about him,
theres a reason, right???
HELP!