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Wow. I'm a fucking mess. A complete fucking disaster. I cannot keep it together. Today I called TutorTime to see what their waiting list is to put Macky back in school - they told me that she could start on Monday with her old teacher. I'm thinking 2 or 3 days a week from 8:00 to 3:00 would be WONDERFUL for both me and her. Good for me because it would relieve about 75% of the stress that I have with her around, and good for her because she's not moving forward by being at home - as a matter of fact, she's moving backwards, and quick. She doesn't even know the days of the week anymore - well, she can sing the song, but if I tell her today is Thursday, she doesn't know that means tomorrow is Friday. So, she needs to be there. She needs to be away from me and away from Kegan and near her friends and her teacher and she needs to start moving forward again. Plus, and I may be TOTALLY wrong, but I wonder if it won't help her stomach issues - assuming that the issues are psychological...I know it costs money, and we don't have a lot of it, but with the time she spends out of the house, I could focus that much more attention to my work, and therefore, be able to pay for it without it affecting us. I just have to convince Joe that it's a good idea. It's not that I just want her out of my hair, and I want to get rid of her - although sometimes, that is certainly the case - but as I said, there are major benefits that could come out of this for all of us...