a little bitch
Ok, I'm here to bitch...but not angrily because I am suprisingly calm(they say you get that way when you're starving to death, lol)...
So I started this insane diet and it's a million times more difficult then I thought. So not only can I not have sugar, yeast, wheat, milk and milk products and potatoes...I can't have alcohol, a lot of different fruit and other random foods like popcorn(I have no comfort food left). So I seriously can't eat very much and I can only eat certain things at certain times.
This morning I drank the juice from an entire lemon and then had to wait 1/2 hour before I could eat anything else. SO stupid! But I am not gonna cheat...the book had a great analogy..."You wouldn't feed someone if you were trying to kill them by starving them, so don't feed your illness". I dunno why but that made me realize how stupid it was to cheat(on the few occasions I did)this past year when I was supposed to have NO sugar.
I can't complain too much though cause I have an awesome life, great friends I couldn't live without and a boyfriend who is super sweet and always makes me smile no matter how shitty and weak I feel! I think I'd break down if it wasn't for him...
Anyways, Christmas is gonna suck food-wise but I'm still MEGA excited to see everyone and just to have a break from effing school! Also I'm excited that I'm going to Montreal to spend some time with JF and his family after Christmas! And that the Christmas party is back on!!! woohoo!!!
Anyways, time to go eat some carrot soup!
So I started this insane diet and it's a million times more difficult then I thought. So not only can I not have sugar, yeast, wheat, milk and milk products and potatoes...I can't have alcohol, a lot of different fruit and other random foods like popcorn(I have no comfort food left). So I seriously can't eat very much and I can only eat certain things at certain times.
This morning I drank the juice from an entire lemon and then had to wait 1/2 hour before I could eat anything else. SO stupid! But I am not gonna cheat...the book had a great analogy..."You wouldn't feed someone if you were trying to kill them by starving them, so don't feed your illness". I dunno why but that made me realize how stupid it was to cheat(on the few occasions I did)this past year when I was supposed to have NO sugar.
I can't complain too much though cause I have an awesome life, great friends I couldn't live without and a boyfriend who is super sweet and always makes me smile no matter how shitty and weak I feel! I think I'd break down if it wasn't for him...
Anyways, Christmas is gonna suck food-wise but I'm still MEGA excited to see everyone and just to have a break from effing school! Also I'm excited that I'm going to Montreal to spend some time with JF and his family after Christmas! And that the Christmas party is back on!!! woohoo!!!
Anyways, time to go eat some carrot soup!