pain
the cool blade of the sharp razor lightly carresses my skin, contemplated where it'll make its first mark. moving gently and carefully, searching mindlessly for that perfect starting point. the blade pauses and pushes into my skin, the blood trickles out. a small starting point and the blade moves slowly but deep into my skin, the blood closely follows the direction of the blade. its cool inside me. the stinging sensation engulfs my entire body and its like an orgasm, everywhere. the pain is so emmence i feel sedated. my eyes close and my crying subsides. the blade continues to rip through my once flawless skin. picking up and continuing to find new starting points to allow the blood to trickle out at first and the push itself out of me. blood covers my chest and stomach, i'm in heaven. immersing myself in the warmth of pain, i smile. i feel safe to know i can hurt myself more than anyone else, and it feels good. the pain excites me. i feel my genitals begin to warm and throb. i feel my labia begin to slide against each other as i continue to drag the beautiful tool across my body. this has to be what others feel when they are happy... if not, they dont know what they're missing. this feeling is wonderful. everything dissappears underneath the blade. i finger the fresh cuts to feel the split, the seperation of my skin my lover has created. the blood is warm and i smear it about me... i suck the blood off my fingers and stick them inside me. oh god, this is what it's like to be in ecstacy. sheer pleasure of everything. my naked body is swallowed in my lover, pain. nothing could ever feel better than this.