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The Nine of Pentacles card suggests that my power today lies in gratification. The fruits of my labor already exist in my values. My garden of purpose is perennial and forever in need of tending but I am surrounded by the results I have intended to create. I am empowered by the splendor that is m life and my asset is personal validation.
ive had a headache for the past week or so...
a part of me wonders if its the change ive made from coffee to tea as of late or if its just something else i can blame on all the hours ive been working. please, please tho, i hope its not the weed or the infection from the plugg in my right ear--that would be tragic. my horoscope in the post (which i now read ((by read i mean i read the horoscopes and do the su doku puzzles)) becos i get it free from the coffee truck outside of my job--small earl grey tea lite and sweet, like you) said that there would be a dispute in my life btwn money and love in the up coming week. in the past the choice would have always been no contest but now things are a bit foggier and its starting to feel like some commitments of mine are made without my own feelings in consideration, not so free spirited. i consciously shift my priorities to accommodate work, i wake up terrified of being late and on friday i woke up thinking about putting in ceiling tiles and cutting with my snips in that weird awake dreaming time. meh. sunday was my first day off after working eight days in a row. for some reason i was awake by 630am laid in bed for an hour until i couldnt take it anymore and had to get up. what does this all mean? i need to take a vacation i need to runaway from nyc...ive got the fever.
do i have any ideas? of course i do...
i want to go to niagra falls, even tho is winter and too cold to get soaking fucking wet i dont care--its still romantic. i want to wash myself clean of everything, i want to rent a car and drive away. i want to see something beautiful and get my head straight again. i want to sleep outside and wake up with swollen eyes.
i just watched like a billion tourist videos of niagra falls to bring you this multi media blog moment. some were funny, some were excruciating to watch, one had a soundtrack of a billy joel song, yack! i fucking hate him he grew up in the town right next to where my mother lived, total drunk and womanizer. enjoy...
ps--who else is totally creeped out by christmas cheer?
yeah, thanks for the weirdo not so covert way of reminding me i am an outsider in this white bread hell hole. what are yous? i'm sorry i have to vent. ive been watching the exorcist alot lately with cara and am realizing how turned off i am by all this fucking bullshit, its like not even real to me. and i dont understand it cos i never went to catholic school and it creeps me out. i was reading the book about goddess earth mother feminism stuff and astrology and it said that the christians adopted christmas becos no one was joining the religion and they needed to compete with celebrations of the high pagan holy days of winter solstice. like bringing a tree into yr home, breaking bread, being nice. its all a scam, a pagan scam. serves them all right. same thing with easter and halloween--doesnt it just make you wanna worship the earth mother and start yr own queer misfit traditions?
ive had a headache for the past week or so...
a part of me wonders if its the change ive made from coffee to tea as of late or if its just something else i can blame on all the hours ive been working. please, please tho, i hope its not the weed or the infection from the plugg in my right ear--that would be tragic. my horoscope in the post (which i now read ((by read i mean i read the horoscopes and do the su doku puzzles)) becos i get it free from the coffee truck outside of my job--small earl grey tea lite and sweet, like you) said that there would be a dispute in my life btwn money and love in the up coming week. in the past the choice would have always been no contest but now things are a bit foggier and its starting to feel like some commitments of mine are made without my own feelings in consideration, not so free spirited. i consciously shift my priorities to accommodate work, i wake up terrified of being late and on friday i woke up thinking about putting in ceiling tiles and cutting with my snips in that weird awake dreaming time. meh. sunday was my first day off after working eight days in a row. for some reason i was awake by 630am laid in bed for an hour until i couldnt take it anymore and had to get up. what does this all mean? i need to take a vacation i need to runaway from nyc...ive got the fever.
do i have any ideas? of course i do...
i want to go to niagra falls, even tho is winter and too cold to get soaking fucking wet i dont care--its still romantic. i want to wash myself clean of everything, i want to rent a car and drive away. i want to see something beautiful and get my head straight again. i want to sleep outside and wake up with swollen eyes.
i just watched like a billion tourist videos of niagra falls to bring you this multi media blog moment. some were funny, some were excruciating to watch, one had a soundtrack of a billy joel song, yack! i fucking hate him he grew up in the town right next to where my mother lived, total drunk and womanizer. enjoy...
Click to viewps--who else is totally creeped out by christmas cheer?
yeah, thanks for the weirdo not so covert way of reminding me i am an outsider in this white bread hell hole. what are yous? i'm sorry i have to vent. ive been watching the exorcist alot lately with cara and am realizing how turned off i am by all this fucking bullshit, its like not even real to me. and i dont understand it cos i never went to catholic school and it creeps me out. i was reading the book about goddess earth mother feminism stuff and astrology and it said that the christians adopted christmas becos no one was joining the religion and they needed to compete with celebrations of the high pagan holy days of winter solstice. like bringing a tree into yr home, breaking bread, being nice. its all a scam, a pagan scam. serves them all right. same thing with easter and halloween--doesnt it just make you wanna worship the earth mother and start yr own queer misfit traditions?