i was lost & craving food

[amy_t4]

I was a new person... that was always craving food
i've been losing weight gaining it back losing it again and putting it back again
but recently i stopped losing weight
i put all the weight back on.... damn that was really fool!
then i felt really depressed.......
i cried alot at school... alot in my house.... my marks were getting worse
and i didn't know what to do....
boys..... they kept telling me i was nice..... they kept flirting with me...
but i stopped feelin pretty =(
i started a fast last monday (for 2.5 days).... lost 6.6 pounds.... put on back 2...
and i'm like 137 ryt now.... ewwww

i will lose the rest of the weight
i need to feel pretty again
i will get better marks
or my mom will get me out of ballet
=(

i need to lose 10 pounds in a few days
and then..... lose atleast till i'm 115 again
ugh so much to lose ......... with everyone watching your steps
a friend knew that i was fasting..... but he likes me, so i begged him not to tell anyone
he didn't... but he keeps forcing me to eat....but i don't.... i can't..... i musn't
i won't!
i won't be what i hate anylonger