I've never felt so many emotions all at once before...weird.
You know, since everything starting happening, I've been asking everyone I talk to "what do you think I should do?" "What would you do?" And then there was my family, saying "You're too sheltered, you wont make it out there on your own, you'll break down" "Dont be stupid, you're too young, live your life first, do what Amy wants to do"
And then I realized, they were right. I need to do what I want to do.
And I want to go through with all of this.
DJ told me Thursday night after dinner, that he is going to join the Marines. He was scared to tell me. He has thought about military since highschool, and was considering Air Force, until Dustin joined the Marines and DJ started studying that branch instead. He wants me to be involved 100%, he's not trying to "move on with his life" like my mom has suggested, he wants me in his life more than I am now.
We're getting married!
He didnt officially propose yet, he was going to surprise me with it after bootcamp, but then after talking to some of his friends, he realized it would be better to talk to me about everything first.
Everything would be so amazing right now (well, besides the Marines thing, but I support him 100%) if only my family wouldnt tell me 1. what to do, 2. what I can/can not handle or 3. how I will be messing up everything if I leave
Right now, our plans are to get married legally before he leaves for bootcamp (he's going to sign up in January) and having the ceremony after bootcamp and MOS.
Its so exciting, I love him to death, he's my best friend. And it's going to be hard, and scary,really scary, but it will all be ok, I just know it.
On a sadder note though, my guinea pig Bubba passed away today :(
Im glad he went in his home, in his sleep in peace and quiet.
He held in there for so long, I honestly thought we would be gone last week when he first showed signs of illness, but he was a strong boy, and now he's in peace.
RIP Bubba
