fun and drama, all in one post!
I swear, Halil and Katherine are the best roommates. We have chemistry, and it makes me laugh almost every night, even if I'm in not such a great mood. I can tell Katherine anything, like she was my own sister (though my sister is much better, I must say, though no offense to Katherine). Halil and I have chemistry as well, just chemistry of another kind. We both understand each other when we're making fun of one another. Tonight, I have found a new favorite moment. We were joking around as usual, him half standing in front of the sink, me trying to rinse out my cup after some tea. Mocking his funny snotty Turkish accent, I was like, "excuse me", and he was like, "no, excuse your Grandma". We both smiled and I cracked up simply because it made no sense, though at the same time, it did. It just worked for the moment. :-D, I think it's more that you had to be there to fully understand the greatness. One of the best moments yet I think. We all just have that chemistry that makes this apartment work, and it's going to be sad having to find other roommates that I mesh this well with. You have to see us in action to fully understand the greatness that is our chemistry. It just rocks...because we rock. I really cannot tell you how very thankful I am to have the roommates that I have. We act like family. We tease like family, which is nice. I have a family up here now (not that I don't have a sort of family with friends, it's just a different sort of family when you live with people), and I'm reluctant to let that go. I know there will be tears forthcoming when they move.
I now have my first official corset!! It's one of Rene's old ones that I'm buying off of her/her mummy. I don't know if any of you were excited when you got your first corset, but this is a big deal for me. Du-du-du-du-du-du-du! Really.
Anyone that knows how to get knots out of backs, I beg you, help me! I've got a rather bad knot in my lower back, and it hurts like a bitch if I sit in any type of position for too long. I'm sure it's been caused by stress more than anything, and it's only gotten worse lately (for those of you who know anything about my family, hmmmm, let's wonder why it's getting worse!), and I'm beginning to worry about it getting any worse. So, please? Help me get this thing out of my back. I can handle knots in my back only so far, and this one is reaching my limits.
I'm sorry if I seem down or off for the next month or so (hopefully it'll be less than that!), it'll just have to be. My family is having massive issues, and it's going to constantly be on my mind. Not much is going to change that. I know that sometimes it'll go into the background for a bit, but it's constantly there, and I'm not excited about much of it. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm excited about certain things that come out of it (a hardwood floored house for one), but most of it is just no fun, no fun at all. Hug me, but don't hug me with pity in your eyes. Thanksgiving is usually a good time in my family, there is quite a bit to be thankful for, especially as of late. Just this year...this year it's not going to be good. I'm excited to go home because I get to see my family, which I'm ALWAYS thankful for since they're so very far away and I miss them so, but at the same time, everything else that's going on makes me not excited to go home. I mean, I don't even know where I'll be sleeping when I go down there. I feel like one of those kids I made fun of when I was younger, though I know everything that is happening in our lives is for the best. It makes me tired, and lethargic. I feel like hiding under the covers and praying that this is all a dream. When you break down at 11 o'clock at night on the phone with your parents and then get knots in your back, you know things are not going well. I hate the fact that I'm not down there. I KNOW that there is nothing that I could do to help, even if I was down there, but that doesn't mean that I don't want to try. I feel like, if I were down there, maybe they would listen to me? I know, deep down, this isn't true, but it doesn't mean a part of me wishes it, and believes it. I feel like I'm going back into my shell a bit and I don't want to, but I'm not sure how to fix it. I can almost see myself falling back into the quiet shy bookworm girl that I used to be. I didn't have friends as that girl. I was made fun of as that girl. I don't want to go back to being that girl. Help me stay away from it? And now this part is getting way too fucking long isn't it? You really don't need to hear all about family issues, you really don't.
More of my stuff is hung up in my room! Be proud that things are finally getting done! I need to raise my TV a bit more, but that isn't going to happen because I don't have proper boxes to put it up on, at least it isn't going to happen for now. Ok, granted, my room is getting a bit messy again, but still! Things are more put away than they were a week ago! I need to fix up my closet space so that I can get the other little shelf-thingy in there. Meh, it's that whole motivation thing that I need.
OOOOH! Before I forget. My roommates are going to be gone starting December 13th, so if you need crash space, I'll have it. I have a sleeping bag and some extra blankets, but our couch isn't that great (it's hard and too small). Tell me a couple of days ahead of time, and I'll make sure the apartment is clean. I'll repeat this nice little message when it comes closer to that time, but yeah.
I now have my first official corset!! It's one of Rene's old ones that I'm buying off of her/her mummy. I don't know if any of you were excited when you got your first corset, but this is a big deal for me. Du-du-du-du-du-du-du! Really.
Anyone that knows how to get knots out of backs, I beg you, help me! I've got a rather bad knot in my lower back, and it hurts like a bitch if I sit in any type of position for too long. I'm sure it's been caused by stress more than anything, and it's only gotten worse lately (for those of you who know anything about my family, hmmmm, let's wonder why it's getting worse!), and I'm beginning to worry about it getting any worse. So, please? Help me get this thing out of my back. I can handle knots in my back only so far, and this one is reaching my limits.
I'm sorry if I seem down or off for the next month or so (hopefully it'll be less than that!), it'll just have to be. My family is having massive issues, and it's going to constantly be on my mind. Not much is going to change that. I know that sometimes it'll go into the background for a bit, but it's constantly there, and I'm not excited about much of it. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm excited about certain things that come out of it (a hardwood floored house for one), but most of it is just no fun, no fun at all. Hug me, but don't hug me with pity in your eyes. Thanksgiving is usually a good time in my family, there is quite a bit to be thankful for, especially as of late. Just this year...this year it's not going to be good. I'm excited to go home because I get to see my family, which I'm ALWAYS thankful for since they're so very far away and I miss them so, but at the same time, everything else that's going on makes me not excited to go home. I mean, I don't even know where I'll be sleeping when I go down there. I feel like one of those kids I made fun of when I was younger, though I know everything that is happening in our lives is for the best. It makes me tired, and lethargic. I feel like hiding under the covers and praying that this is all a dream. When you break down at 11 o'clock at night on the phone with your parents and then get knots in your back, you know things are not going well. I hate the fact that I'm not down there. I KNOW that there is nothing that I could do to help, even if I was down there, but that doesn't mean that I don't want to try. I feel like, if I were down there, maybe they would listen to me? I know, deep down, this isn't true, but it doesn't mean a part of me wishes it, and believes it. I feel like I'm going back into my shell a bit and I don't want to, but I'm not sure how to fix it. I can almost see myself falling back into the quiet shy bookworm girl that I used to be. I didn't have friends as that girl. I was made fun of as that girl. I don't want to go back to being that girl. Help me stay away from it? And now this part is getting way too fucking long isn't it? You really don't need to hear all about family issues, you really don't.
More of my stuff is hung up in my room! Be proud that things are finally getting done! I need to raise my TV a bit more, but that isn't going to happen because I don't have proper boxes to put it up on, at least it isn't going to happen for now. Ok, granted, my room is getting a bit messy again, but still! Things are more put away than they were a week ago! I need to fix up my closet space so that I can get the other little shelf-thingy in there. Meh, it's that whole motivation thing that I need.
OOOOH! Before I forget. My roommates are going to be gone starting December 13th, so if you need crash space, I'll have it. I have a sleeping bag and some extra blankets, but our couch isn't that great (it's hard and too small). Tell me a couple of days ahead of time, and I'll make sure the apartment is clean. I'll repeat this nice little message when it comes closer to that time, but yeah.