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health concerns, school concerns, life concerns. they all suck. i get tested on friday at 2 to see what is wrong with me. i'm always so tired, and i already had mono, so it cannot be that. blah. perhaps graves disease. that sounds like it is something terrible, but its really not. the UK is being evil and making things difficult for me. so much stress. although not really in the grand scheme of things. i have to pump out a 4 page paper tomorrow night. i splurged today whilst i was shopping, but things tell me to buy them.. it's hard to say no. i have been having trouble with that lately. something is CLEARLY wrong with me.
life must get better. school must improve as well. i need to keep myself busy. i keep getting weird. and then i fret, and then i get mad or upset. it's bad. i want to start going to see jazz on monday nights. i used to always go. with jess, then with collins people, then alone for awhile, until orchestra practice cut it out of my life, and then i just stopped. i need to go again. must go.
life must get better. school must improve as well. i need to keep myself busy. i keep getting weird. and then i fret, and then i get mad or upset. it's bad. i want to start going to see jazz on monday nights. i used to always go. with jess, then with collins people, then alone for awhile, until orchestra practice cut it out of my life, and then i just stopped. i need to go again. must go.