Ben...
Last night I sat at Starbucks studying and my thoughts turned to cb, and suddenly my head was filled with flashes of memories and a huge smile spread across my face. I kinda came to, and realized that i was sitting there in this coffee house smiling like a fool, but it was cool. Because i was happy. For the first time, i am truly, truly exited about going back- I even had butterflys in my stomach. I was apprehensive at first, but now my desire to stay with familiar friends has resigned and i am ready for a new life. And of course, my thoughts were with Ben. Wondering what he was doing right then. Wondering when we would see eachother, wondering if he looked different, wondering if he'd think that about me. Wondering how long i'd have to wait until we could be close again. I dont really know what I think about him...so I instead must wait for the time, if ever, that we can be close (geographically), which would allow us the space to see if we are meant to be.