Life...
I just went to CEF at the Chinese Church...I cant even explain how much i like it there. Its the craziest thing because everyone is short and asian, but i am so comfortable. Yeah, so life is good, really good. I'm so happy.
I stayed up till 2am with heather last night, making "sexy music"...haha (We're not lesbians- I swear!) She made me a cd..and that made me happy. I'm so glad that things are good with us. And before that, I was with Jaq and Lindsey making a collage for D, who was studying her tush off. We made her smile (because the collage was filled with sexy, and naked, men)...good times.
Work's been good, some crazy things have happened with people getting in accidents, but its cool. Patty is still being great to me...she was in a bad mood today (she's tired) and I dont like it when she's moody, but oh well. Sometimes I wonder if Whitney (my replacement) will completly overshadow me. The other day at work, Patty said: "We're going to miss you so much...I just cant even perceive that you are leaving" and i said, "Eh, it will be fine..Whitney will come, I will leave and you'll never think of me again". And though part of it was a joke, and part of it was fishing...part of it was just honesty. I like feeling special and valued...but Whitney, I'm afraid, will make me look like Joe-mediocre...and, well, I dont know...
I have to stop thinking about how soon i'm leaving...i dont want to waste my last weeks here. But, honestly I feel like i'm freaking out. Last week i realized that I was leaving in 6 weeks, and now its down to 5, and I feel like its slipping through my fingers. Nick said, "6 weeks is a long time"..but to me it feels so short. In 25 days I will have to leave the dorm...leave all my college friends...say goodbye for who knows how long...leave this year that has been so much fun..that i've loved so much. And, though I'll be going to summer staff which makes me exited, I'm torn. Why must I continually be battling within myself--- grr...Someday I'll figure out what i really want. Someday.
I stayed up till 2am with heather last night, making "sexy music"...haha (We're not lesbians- I swear!) She made me a cd..and that made me happy. I'm so glad that things are good with us. And before that, I was with Jaq and Lindsey making a collage for D, who was studying her tush off. We made her smile (because the collage was filled with sexy, and naked, men)...good times.
Work's been good, some crazy things have happened with people getting in accidents, but its cool. Patty is still being great to me...she was in a bad mood today (she's tired) and I dont like it when she's moody, but oh well. Sometimes I wonder if Whitney (my replacement) will completly overshadow me. The other day at work, Patty said: "We're going to miss you so much...I just cant even perceive that you are leaving" and i said, "Eh, it will be fine..Whitney will come, I will leave and you'll never think of me again". And though part of it was a joke, and part of it was fishing...part of it was just honesty. I like feeling special and valued...but Whitney, I'm afraid, will make me look like Joe-mediocre...and, well, I dont know...
I have to stop thinking about how soon i'm leaving...i dont want to waste my last weeks here. But, honestly I feel like i'm freaking out. Last week i realized that I was leaving in 6 weeks, and now its down to 5, and I feel like its slipping through my fingers. Nick said, "6 weeks is a long time"..but to me it feels so short. In 25 days I will have to leave the dorm...leave all my college friends...say goodbye for who knows how long...leave this year that has been so much fun..that i've loved so much. And, though I'll be going to summer staff which makes me exited, I'm torn. Why must I continually be battling within myself--- grr...Someday I'll figure out what i really want. Someday.