"... i have lost quite a few friends, and they all died to suicide or overdose."
Yup, same here. For some reason all my friends who were involved in the psytrance scenes seemed prone to depression and substance abuse. In fact, all of the deaths of my friends were friends from my time spent dancing (spanning two plus decades), so I can relate. Not sure on their upbringing, but for one in particular, his mom brought out the Jesus hardcore on him. I know for a fact he was super duper atheist, so that is just irritating as fuck.
I get that religion brings personal comfort for many, but once you began pushing your beliefs on others, you can fucking jump in a lake.
Most of my psytrance friends grew up to become homesteading hippies in suspiciously traditional relationships, then during COVID became anti-vaxxers and some fell into the hole of conspiracy-minded wingnuttery. It's been sad to see.
Now, my city-partying raver friends, yeah, a lot of them ODed or committed suicide. I know we don't like to admit it, but a lot of people use that scene and the casual acceptance of drugs as a way to process tough shit in their lives. But of course in many cases that only makes things worse. Of that group, some of them are now born-again Bible-bashing crusaders, and others are dead. So sadly the cycle will continue with their kids.
You and I have had some seriously shared experiences. I was thinking my old faerie girlfriend probably became an antivaxxer. She went from nursing to Chinese medicine and probably turned her back on western med.
She introduced me to open relationships though, and life through different lenses. I’ll forever be grateful for that.
I went to a funeral for a resident at the group home where I worked... he was schizophrenic and gay and STRIDENTLY atheist, but his family was super stridently Mormon, and whenever they would (RARELY!) come visit him whenever they'd leave he was totally fucked up for days afterwards and in total crisis because they saw his schizophrenia as a punishment from God for his "behavior" (ie: unbelief and having same sex attraction) even though he was WAY TOO SHY to even ever have been in a relationship (sexual or romantic) and it just... fucking killed me every damned time. He was only in his early 20s and ended up killing himself one night while I was working and one of the last things he said to me was how is family was visiting him soon, and how he wished they'd just leave him alone. So I go to his funeral and the temple won't let him have his funeral at their place because he wasn't mormon anymore, and they couldn't bury him in the mormon graveyard because he had committed suicide... and yet his funeral was just a line of his shit-ass
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"... i have lost quite a few friends, and they all died to suicide or overdose."
Yup, same here. For some reason all my friends who were involved in the psytrance scenes seemed prone to depression and substance abuse. In fact, all of the deaths of my friends were friends from my time spent dancing (spanning two plus decades), so I can relate. Not sure on their upbringing, but for one in particular, his mom brought out the Jesus hardcore on him. I know for a fact he was super duper atheist, so that is just irritating as fuck.
I get that religion brings personal comfort for many, but once you began pushing your beliefs on others, you can fucking jump in a lake.
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Now, my city-partying raver friends, yeah, a lot of them ODed or committed suicide. I know we don't like to admit it, but a lot of people use that scene and the casual acceptance of drugs as a way to process tough shit in their lives. But of course in many cases that only makes things worse. Of that group, some of them are now born-again Bible-bashing crusaders, and others are dead. So sadly the cycle will continue with their kids.
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She introduced me to open relationships though, and life through different lenses. I’ll forever be grateful for that.
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