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Dude... i went to a wedding on saturday, where two of my close friends got, well, married. I'm not going to lie... it was one of the most beautiful things i've ever seen in my entire life. Seriously, i mean two people, (dang it, this is going to sound effing cliche man... aww well... dude... dang it..) deciding that they are going to allow that other person to become a part of their life forever. man that's just nuts. I say it all the time, "i can't wait to get married" "i'm getting married at 27" but dude... honestly, i've realized that it's never been further from my reach than it has been now. I guess God will just have to provide on this sucker.
yea i know this all sounds gay. shaddup (but quite honestly, no one reads this).
And when woori played his little slide show video deal, man that was just man, honestly i started getting choked up hardcore, like man i was the mc/dj and if i didn't have that riding on me, i probably would have started to bawl. I don't know what it was either. It was just... just... really beautiful i guess. It's the expression, the idea of marriage is so romantic. man... my heart feels really wierd when i think about it. I don't know it's almost as if it was sad. and dude, get this, i'm honestly not that kind of a guy. Well maybe now that i think of it... wait, no man... not really. bottomline, i've never gotten choked up like that for a reason that was not selfish. But this, this was truly something else. that's that...
another thing, alcohol. man that's such a struggle for me right now. Where do i stand on the issue of alcohol. At the wedding there were kids all over the place, once people started getting tipsy it was fine. My little sister age 10 was dancing having a ball, but soon people started fouling it up. The language that was being used, the dancing, Holy crap the dancing. Ok... i've never been repulsed at anything so much that i wanted to throw up. I thought that was just an expression used for dramatic high school kids, but no man, i almost threw up when i saw anna grinding on someone. I honestly had to look away. Towards the end i just wanted to play the last song, pack up my music equipment and get out of there like a bat outta hell. Man, alcohol dude, it's so lame... but so fun... i haven't drank since...well june... and i don't really drink often, maybe once every 2 months. However, i decided to go on this little fast until summer retreat. I wanted to keep sober until the retreat. Wait, i drank at the camping trip and fouled there, that's why i started it. So i decided to enjoy myself sober. Now, with the hotel, i don't know where to go with the whole drinking thing because i probably won't be going to the retreat. These are depressing times, it's not a good idea to go to a bottle. I know what to do i just don't want to do it.
-so honestly... man... the wedding was so beautiful... the reception, beautiful as well... everything following... dude....
another thing... dude... connie paek man, dude... what's up with me. I've been broken up with my gf for a while now. It was extremely mutual... then all of a sudden the lucifer decided to manifest itself into what used to be my gf. Anyway, after the wedding and just lately in general, i miss the company of the opposite sex. I mean not the whole messy part of it, just relaxing, watching movies, light dating. and i know it's not right to just pick something up just because i'm lonely (damn, the world lonely is so pathetic, i mean even when i hear it... bloody pathetic), but dude it still happens instinctively. I don't know, connie has always been a really solid girl, i think she's really cute, i don't know. whatever
yea i know this all sounds gay. shaddup (but quite honestly, no one reads this).
And when woori played his little slide show video deal, man that was just man, honestly i started getting choked up hardcore, like man i was the mc/dj and if i didn't have that riding on me, i probably would have started to bawl. I don't know what it was either. It was just... just... really beautiful i guess. It's the expression, the idea of marriage is so romantic. man... my heart feels really wierd when i think about it. I don't know it's almost as if it was sad. and dude, get this, i'm honestly not that kind of a guy. Well maybe now that i think of it... wait, no man... not really. bottomline, i've never gotten choked up like that for a reason that was not selfish. But this, this was truly something else. that's that...
another thing, alcohol. man that's such a struggle for me right now. Where do i stand on the issue of alcohol. At the wedding there were kids all over the place, once people started getting tipsy it was fine. My little sister age 10 was dancing having a ball, but soon people started fouling it up. The language that was being used, the dancing, Holy crap the dancing. Ok... i've never been repulsed at anything so much that i wanted to throw up. I thought that was just an expression used for dramatic high school kids, but no man, i almost threw up when i saw anna grinding on someone. I honestly had to look away. Towards the end i just wanted to play the last song, pack up my music equipment and get out of there like a bat outta hell. Man, alcohol dude, it's so lame... but so fun... i haven't drank since...well june... and i don't really drink often, maybe once every 2 months. However, i decided to go on this little fast until summer retreat. I wanted to keep sober until the retreat. Wait, i drank at the camping trip and fouled there, that's why i started it. So i decided to enjoy myself sober. Now, with the hotel, i don't know where to go with the whole drinking thing because i probably won't be going to the retreat. These are depressing times, it's not a good idea to go to a bottle. I know what to do i just don't want to do it.
-so honestly... man... the wedding was so beautiful... the reception, beautiful as well... everything following... dude....
another thing... dude... connie paek man, dude... what's up with me. I've been broken up with my gf for a while now. It was extremely mutual... then all of a sudden the lucifer decided to manifest itself into what used to be my gf. Anyway, after the wedding and just lately in general, i miss the company of the opposite sex. I mean not the whole messy part of it, just relaxing, watching movies, light dating. and i know it's not right to just pick something up just because i'm lonely (damn, the world lonely is so pathetic, i mean even when i hear it... bloody pathetic), but dude it still happens instinctively. I don't know, connie has always been a really solid girl, i think she's really cute, i don't know. whatever