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So everyone. i'm here again. and im trying everything to get myself out of my fucking mood and i just cant. I went to a graduation party the other day and i tried to be happy and i think i appeared ok. But inside al li wanted to do was steal some jack and drown myself in it in the woods. And im sick of being angry at other guys because theyve found someone, or the ydotn care. That used to be me. i used to hate realtionships. I used to ridicule people who needed soemone to get by. i used to ridicule peopel who wanted to drown their sorrows in watever controlled substance they wanted. And thats what im becoming. I hate it. i used to be Zane. i used to be able to go through this world as if myself and my friends were the only people who mattered. i was the god of my own life. Now im a weak willed child who doesnt know what he is doing with himself. I mclawing for a way to escape my own body and become something better thanwho i am. i used to be fine with who i am. Im sorry if my last few entries have been annoyingoto some of you. I'd stop reading this for a while im not sure how long this slump will be going on but ill fidn a wa yto let u kno wen im off.