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i don't understand why i am the unfavored one. i need to get out of here. this is not running. instead it is taking myself out of a toxic environment, one filled with hypocrisy and liars. people say, it is not that bad. these people don't live here. these people only see the outside, the pretty icing that others want them to see. i have tried. i have not run and i will not run. this is a decision for me, for my health, for my growth. there is not way to change the environment in which i live. i have tried. i have failed. instead, i have changed me. over six years i have worked and worked to become a better, stronger, stable womyn. a move is for my health, for my sanity. i have achieved what i can here, but i can achieve much more by not being here. the realization is that i do not need their support, neither financially or emotionally. i have been doing my best by myself and i will continue to do so. i don't need them, and they have never shown me that they needed me. if they did they would keep promises. they would help me out after promising to do so. but now i only know empty promises. empty hearts. you tell me they care. if they did, they would try to change. they would keep promises. they would emphasize the healthy instead of glorifying the ill.