insatiable.
"i was thinking about life. can't figure out if i'm happy or not," he said.
"well if you have to think about it..."
"not sure," he replied. "hey, how about you, are you happy?"
and my first reaction to his hesitation was perhaps he wasn't. because wouldn't it be something you wouldn't need to think about? but i hesitated. and my reply? i guess i am happy.
it's weird. being back in italy, i'm not homesick like i was the first time. and in some ways it kinda felt like coming home. and i know, when this is over, this is one of those times in my life i'm going to look back on and miss terribly.
so maybe, maybe i won't ever attain everything i desire. well of course not, because my desires are endless and insatiable. but if i were to go now, today. i'd say, i got everything i ever wanted.
and that's enough.
when i was a kid it used to mean something. money in a red envelope. family friends and all that food. those fire cracker things that pop when kids throw them on the floor, how i was terrified of them. now it's just another day. and from where i've been the past few years, barely recognized. but it's here. and maybe one day, it will mean something again. Happy Chinese New Years. (thank god it's not the year of the rat anymore.)
"well if you have to think about it..."
"not sure," he replied. "hey, how about you, are you happy?"
and my first reaction to his hesitation was perhaps he wasn't. because wouldn't it be something you wouldn't need to think about? but i hesitated. and my reply? i guess i am happy.
it's weird. being back in italy, i'm not homesick like i was the first time. and in some ways it kinda felt like coming home. and i know, when this is over, this is one of those times in my life i'm going to look back on and miss terribly.
so maybe, maybe i won't ever attain everything i desire. well of course not, because my desires are endless and insatiable. but if i were to go now, today. i'd say, i got everything i ever wanted.
and that's enough.
when i was a kid it used to mean something. money in a red envelope. family friends and all that food. those fire cracker things that pop when kids throw them on the floor, how i was terrified of them. now it's just another day. and from where i've been the past few years, barely recognized. but it's here. and maybe one day, it will mean something again. Happy Chinese New Years. (thank god it's not the year of the rat anymore.)