Ponderness
Do you ever feel like you are too young to feel certain things... like even though you think you are experienced, are you? Or you just question your feelings... its hard to say. For example, I know that I am in love with Surge... I just know it. But part of me says you're too young to feel that strongly and you need to grow as a person to feel that way. Other times, I'll feel extreme stress and feel like my responsibilities are blown out of proportion... but should I feel it and try to label it as what I think I know it is... or is it something else that I am identifying with because I am younger... its so confusing. I know everyone should feel and try to deal with what they feel to the best of their abilities. I consider myself to be very self-aware. I know what I feel and I am able to put things into perspective after sometime. And yeah... who is to say what perspective is correct or inncorrect. NO ONE. I think that is something a person has to decide and I think its important that our feelings evolve as we evolve into stronger individuals. No one can tell me how to feel. I can't even tell myself how to feel because I am controlled by my emotions. I haven't found myself numb at too many times in my life. I always feel. I think 18 has been the most confusing age for me.. yea.. I've only been 18 for 2 weeks or so, but still... I think the label has made me sway away from my theory that age isn't anything but a number ( hehe when I was 17 and under, I used to tell older, creppy guys that would hit on me, "For me, age isnt anything but a number, but for you it could mean 10 years). I still believe that, I've just questioned it along with other things like religion and what not. Its weird. I just have to keep thinking about it.