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So, its not that I am anti-social, its just that I do not care to sit with the masses of people in the lunch room. The noise and abundance of people gives me anxiety like crazy and I cannot pay attention to the people talking to me because I have to look at every other sudden movement that is happening with in my viewing range. I like to be in the library where it is quiet and where I can catch up on my homework, or mess around on LJ when I feel the need to vent about something. Even though I only stay at school till about 1, I really do not want to be here. I have also decided that going to my LCC class is somewhat pointless because the teacher puts all of the notes online, she tells us every single thing that will be on the test, and we do a module that is almost identical to the test. So why sit there while someone reads the notes to me when I could easily read them to myself. If I was paying for the class, I think I would be less likely to go, but beacuse good old DHS pays for, I feel obligated... unless I want to leave to get coffee lol.. thats happend twice. School is boring. My grades are going down because I put less effort into my work. I have a 4.00 and a 3.91 from first semester, and yes, busting ass feels good in the end and yes I am a nazi about my grades because failing is NOT an option for me, but now its like I DO NOT GIVE A FLYING FUCK. I probally should... I should realize that the planner is a good thing to continue to use and that GVSU could put me on academic probation for shitty grades. Yay for my B- in AP-fuckin english, my A in Graphic Desing, and my B+ in Bible lit. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Oh, speaking of Bible Lit, the quiz was impossible. FREAKIN IMPOSSIBLE.. Mr.D took every hard word burried within the depths of the text that he could find, and put them on the quiz. Hey, at least I got the Carl Jung bit correct!! YAy for psych0-knowledge!! Yes, I am obsessive, yes, its probally irrational, but its me and its how I have functioned for the past 17 years and 359 days. ( MY BIRTHDAY IS FEB 28!! usually dont like to broadcast it, but common! I can vote.. thats HUGE. I can buy pornos...haha.. naw.. wouldnt do that.. icky. I can go to Spiral. Other concerts..thats cool. OH i could even move out if I desired to).
Lets see.. here is another thing. If anyone has an issue with anything that I am doing right now, tell me and not your neighbor. Yes, talking behind my back is easier to do because you wont have to hear my side of the story, but in all fairness and in all maturity, TELL ME. I dont have an issue being critized by people. Critique me, I will consider your point of view being that open minded person that I am, and in return, try to be open to my point of view. I understand that not everyone can like you, but I dont enjoy tension. It gives me anxiety lol. I have enough of that coming from school, art, clubs, volunteering, future, etc. Also, you may not agree with the things that I do or respect them, but I still deserve respect. I do not need to be called rude names, I do not want to hear rude phrases aimed at me, etc. There are more mature ways to go about releasing anger. If you are mad, thats ok, but direct it in a positive manner...
Well, off to bible lit and chinese... YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHA. I hope Ryan decided to drag his Axe-ridden cute ass out of bed for Bible Lit. he makes it oh so fun.
Take care and keep in mind what I said. I am always here to listen to anyones issues whether they are with me or with something else! Luv ya all!
Lets see.. here is another thing. If anyone has an issue with anything that I am doing right now, tell me and not your neighbor. Yes, talking behind my back is easier to do because you wont have to hear my side of the story, but in all fairness and in all maturity, TELL ME. I dont have an issue being critized by people. Critique me, I will consider your point of view being that open minded person that I am, and in return, try to be open to my point of view. I understand that not everyone can like you, but I dont enjoy tension. It gives me anxiety lol. I have enough of that coming from school, art, clubs, volunteering, future, etc. Also, you may not agree with the things that I do or respect them, but I still deserve respect. I do not need to be called rude names, I do not want to hear rude phrases aimed at me, etc. There are more mature ways to go about releasing anger. If you are mad, thats ok, but direct it in a positive manner...
Well, off to bible lit and chinese... YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHA. I hope Ryan decided to drag his Axe-ridden cute ass out of bed for Bible Lit. he makes it oh so fun.
Take care and keep in mind what I said. I am always here to listen to anyones issues whether they are with me or with something else! Luv ya all!