natasha ekunwe rocks my socks
random thot:
is 20 months really long to any 1 else?
y am i the one in the relationship freaking out about talking about the future when he is talking about what we will do when I go to college- that's in 20 months.
20 months is hella long
that's after THIS SUMMER, MY SENIOR YEAR!, and THE SUMMER AFTER SENIOR YEAR.
a lot can happen in that time! think of all the other boys i could meet.
this is a messed up thing for me to say but i got really surprised by what he said today. talking about what will happen when i get to college- i said u should be more surprised if im still with u then. 20 months, my senior year, and two summers, AT LEAST, with 1 guy, damn!
on the other side of things, kyle is probabaly the best thing that could have happened to me this year. my friendships have been super unstable, my mom is getting worse, i miss my sister hella badly, and school is super overwhelming! He is teaching me so much. I wish i could always be with him. i still get all giggly when i see KYLE on my cell fone screen when he calls (the little things r still exciting) even tho i feel like we've been together but have only been dating for 2 months today. i can't think of what i did b4 him. who kept me grounded? who kept me sane? who kept me excited to wake up each day knowing that there was a possibility i would get to see him? amidst all the chaos and confusion surrounding my life, there kyle stands. without a hair out of place, peaceful, calm, smiling. he has a sense of "everything will be okay mandy". i love that. i need that. i need him. i kno i shouldn't depend on him for my happiness and i am working on it, but until i master that concept that is harder than it mite sound..i will marvel the fact that i have a bf that will ALWAYS be there for me, NEVER treat me badly, and FOREVER be perfect in every way.
so who knows...the next 20+ months could be the best of my life
is 20 months really long to any 1 else?
y am i the one in the relationship freaking out about talking about the future when he is talking about what we will do when I go to college- that's in 20 months.
20 months is hella long
that's after THIS SUMMER, MY SENIOR YEAR!, and THE SUMMER AFTER SENIOR YEAR.
a lot can happen in that time! think of all the other boys i could meet.
this is a messed up thing for me to say but i got really surprised by what he said today. talking about what will happen when i get to college- i said u should be more surprised if im still with u then. 20 months, my senior year, and two summers, AT LEAST, with 1 guy, damn!
on the other side of things, kyle is probabaly the best thing that could have happened to me this year. my friendships have been super unstable, my mom is getting worse, i miss my sister hella badly, and school is super overwhelming! He is teaching me so much. I wish i could always be with him. i still get all giggly when i see KYLE on my cell fone screen when he calls (the little things r still exciting) even tho i feel like we've been together but have only been dating for 2 months today. i can't think of what i did b4 him. who kept me grounded? who kept me sane? who kept me excited to wake up each day knowing that there was a possibility i would get to see him? amidst all the chaos and confusion surrounding my life, there kyle stands. without a hair out of place, peaceful, calm, smiling. he has a sense of "everything will be okay mandy". i love that. i need that. i need him. i kno i shouldn't depend on him for my happiness and i am working on it, but until i master that concept that is harder than it mite sound..i will marvel the fact that i have a bf that will ALWAYS be there for me, NEVER treat me badly, and FOREVER be perfect in every way.
so who knows...the next 20+ months could be the best of my life