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:-( why
do i feel this way? i feel like complete and utter shit. its not fair
anymore. everytime i try to be happy something has to overwelm me with
sadness. im tired of crying. im tired of feeling like no one cares for
me. im tired of feeling like i annoy everyone. im tired of feeling
worthless. its not fair anymore. ive felt this way all of my life, and
its not fucking fair. i cant sleep at night, but i cant wake up in the
morning. my mind keeps running all day long, i think about horrible
things that can happen to me so that someone will notice me. i feel
like i scream at the top of my lungs in a crowded room and no one can
hear me. why am i crying now???? and i cant stop! it wont fucking stop.
i cant be happy for five minutes without being sad for atleast 15 after
that. i miss my sister. its not fair that just because my dad is an
asshole and i dont wanna see him that i dont get to see her. i miss
her. she was my best friend. im tired of guys walking all over me and
making me feel like shit. all i do is love everyone, and im kind, and
they stab me in the fucking back. IM TIRED OF THIS FUCKING SHIT. I WANT
IT TO BE OVER...i feel life is never going to get better, at times i just want to fucking die. i feel so fucking alone