I finally did it! score!
Finally, I managed to do it. I couldn't manage to come out to my mother in person, so I did it via email. (I would have done it in a handwritten note, but I didn't want any chance of Dad*snarl* getting ahold of it) For about 3 days I didn't even know if she have gotten it...I was all on pins and needles and whatnot. Then, the one night I am on my way to bed at about 3:30 am (i sleep weird when i am stressed) and she makes a point of saying "I love you." Now, normally this is done in that kinda distracted "yeah, luvya, lemme sleep" kinda way..but she said it very clearly. So I stopped and said "I love you, too." (instead of "'night! luvya!") She said "I just want you to be happy, Olivia. I love you." I went over to give her a kiss on the cheek and she said "It would take an idiot to not know what you told me, though." I winked and said "Thats why Dad doesn't know" "...Goodnight, Olivia." And off I skipped to bed. I love my Mommy! =^_^= (okay, so she can't say it *lol* but she still is wonderful)
(keep in mind that it has been Parentalized for my own well-being...my mom doesn't need the naughty details, after all=^_^=...)
Mom,
Well, I have tried and tried to tell you this, with little to no success. Its not that I think you will be upset or closeminded or anything...the idea of telling you just freaks me out for some reason. Paranoia,I suppose. I have gotten so close to telling you so many times...and then I lose my nerve. Soo...uhmmm...yeah, I decided to get the ball rolling via email with potential conversation to follow. Here goes...
For sometime now, beginning sometime near the start of college, I have been aware of the fact that my interest in girls/women was not purely platonic. It first became apparent to me when I was drawn to Krystal even after I learned and accepted who and what she was. This alone did not convince me though; it merely made me wonder. I also found myself attracted to Heather...we even went on a few dates, although we learned quickly that that wouldn't work out. Even after this and my continued interest in Kris, I wondered and thought. Slowly I realized though that since High School there has been something a bit off with my interest in the fairer sex. I even had a crush on a girl called Lindsay, although at the time I didn't recognise it for what it was and basically ignored it. So after months of deliberation and examination I came to the conclusion that while I maintain a definite interest in men, I am also attracted to women in an emotional and romantic sense. Sometime at the start of February, I worked up my nerve and asked Krissy if she wanted to date me. She makes me happy and is a nice balance to my sometimes erratic nature. (read: she neutralizes some of my less than desirable traits and I neutralize some of hers...it seems a nice balance)
For the longest time I have wanted to tell you about all of this. I don't want to keep the details of my life away from you like I have to do with Dad. I want to have a close and open relationship with you. Slowly, I think I am learning to do that, although I think both of us tend to be fairly private people. *shrugs*; I hope you don't mind finding out in this fashion...its just the best my brain came up with. If you have any questions or anything, I want you to just ask, either with email or IRL. I love you Mom. *hugs*
Love,
Ollie
P.S. Please don't tell Dad or Grandma and Grandpa? I don't think they would handle it well to say the least. (yes, I know you know that...I just had to make sure *lol*)
(keep in mind that it has been Parentalized for my own well-being...my mom doesn't need the naughty details, after all=^_^=...)
Mom,
Well, I have tried and tried to tell you this, with little to no success. Its not that I think you will be upset or closeminded or anything...the idea of telling you just freaks me out for some reason. Paranoia,I suppose. I have gotten so close to telling you so many times...and then I lose my nerve. Soo...uhmmm...yeah, I decided to get the ball rolling via email with potential conversation to follow. Here goes...
For sometime now, beginning sometime near the start of college, I have been aware of the fact that my interest in girls/women was not purely platonic. It first became apparent to me when I was drawn to Krystal even after I learned and accepted who and what she was. This alone did not convince me though; it merely made me wonder. I also found myself attracted to Heather...we even went on a few dates, although we learned quickly that that wouldn't work out. Even after this and my continued interest in Kris, I wondered and thought. Slowly I realized though that since High School there has been something a bit off with my interest in the fairer sex. I even had a crush on a girl called Lindsay, although at the time I didn't recognise it for what it was and basically ignored it. So after months of deliberation and examination I came to the conclusion that while I maintain a definite interest in men, I am also attracted to women in an emotional and romantic sense. Sometime at the start of February, I worked up my nerve and asked Krissy if she wanted to date me. She makes me happy and is a nice balance to my sometimes erratic nature. (read: she neutralizes some of my less than desirable traits and I neutralize some of hers...it seems a nice balance)
For the longest time I have wanted to tell you about all of this. I don't want to keep the details of my life away from you like I have to do with Dad. I want to have a close and open relationship with you. Slowly, I think I am learning to do that, although I think both of us tend to be fairly private people. *shrugs*; I hope you don't mind finding out in this fashion...its just the best my brain came up with. If you have any questions or anything, I want you to just ask, either with email or IRL. I love you Mom. *hugs*
Love,
Ollie
P.S. Please don't tell Dad or Grandma and Grandpa? I don't think they would handle it well to say the least. (yes, I know you know that...I just had to make sure *lol*)