seesaw
i am dealing with these incredible highs and lows these past couple of weeks, it's actually starting to really get to me. it seems like there are a lot of things around me that either contribute to me feeling really great or really shitty, and one little thing can turn the whole equation around. it's not stable or healthy, and i don't know what to do to change it. it's no one thing, and it's no particular thing i can get rid of -- all crap i have to be surrounded with at this point in my life.
i've got three days left here, a show in london, then home. i'll be home for like a week, trying to find a way to make money, then i go to my little retreatland in arkansas. i really need to put down some sort of anchor on this stuff before then, because it is such an important place for me. and so much has changed since i was there last. . . i need it to be good. a healing little river, an old lady who loves me, and a dog to go on long walks with.
so i'm packing up, finishing recordings, trying to wrap up head and heart.. but every time i turn around there's another dangling little loose string. something that can't be snipped.
i've got three days left here, a show in london, then home. i'll be home for like a week, trying to find a way to make money, then i go to my little retreatland in arkansas. i really need to put down some sort of anchor on this stuff before then, because it is such an important place for me. and so much has changed since i was there last. . . i need it to be good. a healing little river, an old lady who loves me, and a dog to go on long walks with.
so i'm packing up, finishing recordings, trying to wrap up head and heart.. but every time i turn around there's another dangling little loose string. something that can't be snipped.