Nervous breakdown? Perhaps...
Hey hey livejournal...
Blah Blah bleh, bah bleh bleu bleh
Eeeuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh.
What?
My mind feels numb.
Overload.
I stomach feels nauseous.
Rambling...
What the fuck am I thinking?
I decided today that I am too bitter and antisocial for my own good. I was sitting in my ceramics class today. First off, this is something I love and feel as though it could be very well the only thing I know I want in my life forever.
Art.
Anyhow, I should appreciate the others in my class and think maybe it's something we have in common, and that I could be sitting with a lot of potentially talented people... or something. I don't know where I'm going with that, but basically I decided that I hated everyone in that class and they all annoy me. I've felt like that with everyone so far in every one of my classes. New environment, new people, and I hate it already. Which is weird, because I'm not like that always. And it's not like new things scare me or anything. But really, everyone there annoyed the hell out of me. Just looking at them. What the fuck gives me the right to pass judgment on people like that?
I'm no better.
I hope people don't feel that way about me.
I've been such a jerk lately.
I am uncomfortable.
Unhappy.
Tempestuous.
When did this come about?
I feel like my emotions are wrong, all the time.
Apparently, emotions irrational. If they are such a huge part of me, that must mean I am irrational.
I feel like everything I do is wrong.
I feel like I drive people away.
I'm so emotional all the time. I cry about everything.
I have perpetual pms.
Stand clear.
Blah Blah bleh, bah bleh bleu bleh
Eeeuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh.
What?
My mind feels numb.
Overload.
I stomach feels nauseous.
Rambling...
What the fuck am I thinking?
I decided today that I am too bitter and antisocial for my own good. I was sitting in my ceramics class today. First off, this is something I love and feel as though it could be very well the only thing I know I want in my life forever.
Art.
Anyhow, I should appreciate the others in my class and think maybe it's something we have in common, and that I could be sitting with a lot of potentially talented people... or something. I don't know where I'm going with that, but basically I decided that I hated everyone in that class and they all annoy me. I've felt like that with everyone so far in every one of my classes. New environment, new people, and I hate it already. Which is weird, because I'm not like that always. And it's not like new things scare me or anything. But really, everyone there annoyed the hell out of me. Just looking at them. What the fuck gives me the right to pass judgment on people like that?
I'm no better.
I hope people don't feel that way about me.
I've been such a jerk lately.
I am uncomfortable.
Unhappy.
Tempestuous.
When did this come about?
I feel like my emotions are wrong, all the time.
Apparently, emotions irrational. If they are such a huge part of me, that must mean I am irrational.
I feel like everything I do is wrong.
I feel like I drive people away.
I'm so emotional all the time. I cry about everything.
I have perpetual pms.
Stand clear.