A ship in harbor is safe but thats not why ships are built
Sometimes I wish I could just relive one day over and over again
But then I realize that would be boring...
When I look into the future I see happiness
Its just the road to get there is long, rough and mean
I've been thinking a lot about the Palace
Trust me...its getting old for me too
But I keep thinking of how unhappy I was towards the end
I wanted to find something else
My request for days off was embarrassing...
I realize I don't want to go back to THOSE days
I want to go back to the happy days
But those have been gone for a very long time...
I got accepted into a expensive program at school for a great opportunity
I'm having a hard time distinguishing between my gut and my feelings
I wish I could say I NEED to do this as oppose to just WANTING it
And I'm afraid that once I get it... it'll be "I don't want this anymore"
I know I can't live life being scared of the consequences of my decisions
But I also don't want to LIVE with the consequences of my bad decisions...
Its tough and my makes my stomach hurt
I wish Josh would just tell me DO THIS
Even though he is I know that there is a BUT at the end of that sentence
Its not his fault and he is always been supportive and my biggest cheerleader
But he is also a realist and always worried about money...
I want a lot of things and this was supposed to be my year to be a GO GETTER
But I'm still at the start line hesitating....
But then I realize that would be boring...
When I look into the future I see happiness
Its just the road to get there is long, rough and mean
I've been thinking a lot about the Palace
Trust me...its getting old for me too
But I keep thinking of how unhappy I was towards the end
I wanted to find something else
My request for days off was embarrassing...
I realize I don't want to go back to THOSE days
I want to go back to the happy days
But those have been gone for a very long time...
I got accepted into a expensive program at school for a great opportunity
I'm having a hard time distinguishing between my gut and my feelings
I wish I could say I NEED to do this as oppose to just WANTING it
And I'm afraid that once I get it... it'll be "I don't want this anymore"
I know I can't live life being scared of the consequences of my decisions
But I also don't want to LIVE with the consequences of my bad decisions...
Its tough and my makes my stomach hurt
I wish Josh would just tell me DO THIS
Even though he is I know that there is a BUT at the end of that sentence
Its not his fault and he is always been supportive and my biggest cheerleader
But he is also a realist and always worried about money...
I want a lot of things and this was supposed to be my year to be a GO GETTER
But I'm still at the start line hesitating....