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another dream like -that-, another wake-up and feel the loss. how can a person that hurt me so much be resurected into memory by my subconcience?
[edit 3:17 pm] silly me, makes perfect sense..relationship trauma = nightmares for months on end (it's been nearly a year now). At least he actually hated me in this dream, it wasn't so hard to accept when I woke up . Still sureal..a mutual friend driving me there..that was a little weird..getting there and a bunch of friends being there and myself running as fast as possible away toward through a field toward 413... and horses..horses for some goddamed reason and suddenly my mom's instructing me how to put a western bridal on the horse and then I'm awake..with the above. WTF?
I understand why the topic keeps arising in my dreams, I just want a definitive answer as to when all the feelings and hurt will be in the past, and not a part of my present. Perhaps never..and that scares the shit out of me..
What can I do now to take care of myself? Honor the friends and love I -do- have in my life.
"What you focus on, expands"...right?
[edit 3:17 pm] silly me, makes perfect sense..relationship trauma = nightmares for months on end (it's been nearly a year now). At least he actually hated me in this dream, it wasn't so hard to accept when I woke up . Still sureal..a mutual friend driving me there..that was a little weird..getting there and a bunch of friends being there and myself running as fast as possible away toward through a field toward 413... and horses..horses for some goddamed reason and suddenly my mom's instructing me how to put a western bridal on the horse and then I'm awake..with the above. WTF?
I understand why the topic keeps arising in my dreams, I just want a definitive answer as to when all the feelings and hurt will be in the past, and not a part of my present. Perhaps never..and that scares the shit out of me..
What can I do now to take care of myself? Honor the friends and love I -do- have in my life.
"What you focus on, expands"...right?