I had had a very serious and severe relapse of RMSTF..
Some of you will remember that I became very ill in August with Rocky Mountain spotted tick fever. While I went through all of the months of antibiotics, ect that was supposed to rid me of the RMSTF forever, it didn't, and has been in hiding. My immune system went to crap earlier this m onth, and then the RMSTF came out of hiding and began attacking once again.
This time the debilitating arthritis issues that sometimes come with it have ravaged me from head to toe. I'd been havild mild problems with it frequently for the past 4 or 5 months, but this time is far different. I can barely stand without support and any movement is excruiating. There is no joint or vertebrate that isn't severely inflamed. Before it gets worse, I wanted to let you guys know what is going on because I will be disappearing for a while, more then likely.
This time it has also begun affecting my sight. Any time I try to stare or look at or read anything that isn't moving quickly, my eyes just can't stay focused and sending one signal to the brain to interperate. Instead they are taking millions of nanosecond frames seperate from one another, so it appears stationary objects are moving of their volation--- which, let me tell you, had me freaking out so badly I was becoming hysterical, and wondering why I was hallucinating out of the blue. Once we knew why it was happening it just became very painful, frustrating and frightening- everytime I looked at something I was seeing trillions of fast frames each with different lighting, placement of shadows, placement of image, ect. So far, there's nothing that can be done to fix it, and even once we get the RMSTF under control again and in remission, there is a chance that damage will already be permanent.
Right now it's all up in the air and we don't know certainities regarding what will happen to me next.
Keep me in your thoughts, if you would, and if you pray and to whatever/whoever you make those prayers to, please keep me there as well. At this moment, I could really use them.
I will probably come around to read everynow and the, but I only have 3 fingers to type with, and even then it's very painful. So I won't be replying after this, unless things dramatically improve quickly. I hope my sight doesn't get worse, but just since I woke up this morning it has progressed rapidly. I am scared to death...
This time the debilitating arthritis issues that sometimes come with it have ravaged me from head to toe. I'd been havild mild problems with it frequently for the past 4 or 5 months, but this time is far different. I can barely stand without support and any movement is excruiating. There is no joint or vertebrate that isn't severely inflamed. Before it gets worse, I wanted to let you guys know what is going on because I will be disappearing for a while, more then likely.
This time it has also begun affecting my sight. Any time I try to stare or look at or read anything that isn't moving quickly, my eyes just can't stay focused and sending one signal to the brain to interperate. Instead they are taking millions of nanosecond frames seperate from one another, so it appears stationary objects are moving of their volation--- which, let me tell you, had me freaking out so badly I was becoming hysterical, and wondering why I was hallucinating out of the blue. Once we knew why it was happening it just became very painful, frustrating and frightening- everytime I looked at something I was seeing trillions of fast frames each with different lighting, placement of shadows, placement of image, ect. So far, there's nothing that can be done to fix it, and even once we get the RMSTF under control again and in remission, there is a chance that damage will already be permanent.
Right now it's all up in the air and we don't know certainities regarding what will happen to me next.
Keep me in your thoughts, if you would, and if you pray and to whatever/whoever you make those prayers to, please keep me there as well. At this moment, I could really use them.
I will probably come around to read everynow and the, but I only have 3 fingers to type with, and even then it's very painful. So I won't be replying after this, unless things dramatically improve quickly. I hope my sight doesn't get worse, but just since I woke up this morning it has progressed rapidly. I am scared to death...