you go backwards, but then, you go forwards

Apr 24, 2007 20:10

I have homework and piano practicing to do, but I can take time to write here.

I'm listening to Coldplay right now, more specifically, X&Y, my least favorite of their CDs. I'm really enjoying it. I find it pretty funny that two years ago I was anticipating the release of this CD so much. Then over the past year or so, I've become less enamored with Coldplay and have taken a liking to more interesting music. Coldplay's music isn't really profound, it's not too interesting, it's not too crazy... so what is suddenly drawing me to it again? It might be that it's just really... pleasant. Yeah, that's it. It's pleasant. Simple and nice and easy on the ears. I'm a very active listener, so maybe this is my mind's way of telling me that I should give myself a break and listen to something that doesn't require as much active listening.

I'm such a fucking music snob sometimes.

I dunno.

I played my competition set at school today, and it was... meh. The Bach kind of fell apart in a lot of places. The Bernstein was fine, I guess, and the Kabalevsky was ok, though #2 sucked dong. I did it a couple times at my lesson today though, and the second time, I fuckin NAILED the Bach, and did very well with the others. So I have absolutely no idea how well I'll do at the competition on Saturday.

Tomorrow is Day of Silence at our school.

Recently I've been thinking a lot about my friends. I feel like my friend base is fractured, which was inevitable - not everyone can like everyone, and there's no need to try. It's just that... I really miss the way things were last summer with my friends. I'm still friends with the people that I was friends with last summer, it's just that it's not like a big group anymore, it's a bunch of little friendships. In some cases, that's great, and in some cases, it's not. A lot of things have affected how my friends interact - boyfriends, girlfriends, marijuana, alcohol, school, work, music, fights, grudges, jealousy, etc. I don't know exactly where I'm going with this and I don't want to be too specific, but I just had to write it. I absolutely love my friends, I just get a weird vibe when I think about all of my friends as a whole.

When I'm in a public place, and I hear smooth jazz, I get furious. It makes me feel like everything's fake.

Yesterday was busy, today was busy, tomorrow's busy, what else is new?

I really should do homework and practice now.
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