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so im an idiot. i almost messed up one of my favorite freindships and i have a feeling it is going to be really hard not to do it again. please pray for me. aawww i was watching fil of the future and it was cute haha how pathetic but not really hes not too shaby. so i miss my friend ashley alot and well both ashleys are gone. schmidt is my lay under the stars buddy and discuss the finer things in life lol some of you know our humor. she is in colombia amongst gorgous latin men. woo hoo for her. well i am subject to waken at 6 in the morning for the next three days and work but i love it. i get to relax in between rush and meet new people who share the same passion for God that i do. ok my first statement is still bugging me and im really confused and messed up. a third friend of mine is gone and hes the one who will put ne back in reality. why do some of my favortie people have to be gone at such a idiodic time in my life. uuuggghhhh this is really bothering me i am totally lost. i have alot to be thankful for and i am not forgetting that yet this problem seems to be growing in my subconcious. you know how when you picture yourself doing something its alot easier to do? well i cant turn my head off and i want to so bad well i wil just picture myself with my three gorgeous men who would never let me down. haha i can dream that as my friends lover does for her that they bring me flowers as they take me out to breakfast lol and sing me love songs that are written for me and make my side hurt with jokes that cause my eyes to flood. o dear me ..........................................why cant fairy tales come true??????????????????????