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Good news for the first time in weeks.
Im heading off to New York with Casey after new years. Im booking our flight and hotel tonight after work. I need to get out of here. There is no other place Id rather go and no other person that would be better to go with.
I feel like my life has just been falling apart. I haven't been excited for anything, life has literally just been depressing. I don't feel happy when I wake up, I don't feel connected to anything. All I have been doing is crying and feeling like a blob.
But I have decided to change all of that. Im going to go grocery shopping right now, go apply for a credit card, get cleaning supplies and shampoo our carpet. Then work. Then im going to work out.
Anything that keeps my mind off of him and her helps. I know I am better, I know he isn't even close to good enough for me, but that doesnt take away the feelings I had. Especially when we first met. It's proving to be really hard to move on...I know how Andrew is. He clings onto the first girl who shows him affection after a break up. Which is cool for him, but I don't want to be like that.