rambunctious ramblings [3]
So Charis is about to do something that might be potentially ruinous. And maybe obscenely stupid. And she has no idea how this will turn out and it kind of scares her.
She wonders why she constantly comes up with ideas like this. The last time she came up with one of these big gigantic ideas was last August (if she remembers rightly) and it probably wasn't the hardest thing in the world to do but the idea turned into friendship :) for which she will be always grateful and awed.
So she wonders what will come of this current gigantic idea because it is on a much larger scale, directly addressed to an audience of one but potentially an audience of thousands, even millions. Judging by the previous 'big idea' she had, perhaps this one will turn out well. Or maybe it will be 2nd time unlucky. She does not know.
She has already convinced herself to do it, it's just about whether she will get cold feet at the last minute or whether she will ever get around to doing it. But in her mind she has already rationalised all the possibilities and she knows that if she doesn't at least give it a shot (as it was for the last big idea), she will wonder until her brain bursts from conjuring possibilities.
So she guesses that she will be making this idea a reality in a couple of days from now.
Bugger.
/edit: I really like typing in the 3rd person. Gives a kind of detached feeling so that I won't have to kick myself for what an EPICLY STUPID THING I might be doing.
She wonders why she constantly comes up with ideas like this. The last time she came up with one of these big gigantic ideas was last August (if she remembers rightly) and it probably wasn't the hardest thing in the world to do but the idea turned into friendship :) for which she will be always grateful and awed.
So she wonders what will come of this current gigantic idea because it is on a much larger scale, directly addressed to an audience of one but potentially an audience of thousands, even millions. Judging by the previous 'big idea' she had, perhaps this one will turn out well. Or maybe it will be 2nd time unlucky. She does not know.
She has already convinced herself to do it, it's just about whether she will get cold feet at the last minute or whether she will ever get around to doing it. But in her mind she has already rationalised all the possibilities and she knows that if she doesn't at least give it a shot (as it was for the last big idea), she will wonder until her brain bursts from conjuring possibilities.
So she guesses that she will be making this idea a reality in a couple of days from now.
Bugger.
/edit: I really like typing in the 3rd person. Gives a kind of detached feeling so that I won't have to kick myself for what an EPICLY STUPID THING I might be doing.