this one is for me. because my hand just can't hold the pen.
i woke up lonely this morning.
so i took some time to do nothing.
the energy in this house is draining.
so i left to have dinner with a good friend.
we had some good laughs. we always do.
a third party came along. and we all talked. and i discovered...
i hate that my friends have to give warnings about me to people i have yet to meet. a sort of "she's a good person but she can be a bit much"
it makes me feel so horrible. i've always thought it was a problem. god i don't mean to be so self-deprecating, it's just i hate that i have to fight to prove i'm a good person, like if you just take the bad in me you'd see there's so much more good.
but tonight i just felt like the bad friend in the bunch. the one that's always forgotten, which seems to be a popular theme amongst my friends these days.
im going to bed lonely tonight.
so i'm crying myself to sleep to ease the strain.
i can't wait for you san francisco.
everything will be new. i'll start again.
so i took some time to do nothing.
the energy in this house is draining.
so i left to have dinner with a good friend.
we had some good laughs. we always do.
a third party came along. and we all talked. and i discovered...
i hate that my friends have to give warnings about me to people i have yet to meet. a sort of "she's a good person but she can be a bit much"
it makes me feel so horrible. i've always thought it was a problem. god i don't mean to be so self-deprecating, it's just i hate that i have to fight to prove i'm a good person, like if you just take the bad in me you'd see there's so much more good.
but tonight i just felt like the bad friend in the bunch. the one that's always forgotten, which seems to be a popular theme amongst my friends these days.
im going to bed lonely tonight.
so i'm crying myself to sleep to ease the strain.
i can't wait for you san francisco.
everything will be new. i'll start again.