Another something
Sometimes I really think that I am the weirdest person in the world. And not at all like those dumb ass t-shirts or patches that say idiotic things like, "Fuck yeah, I'm weird." Instead I feel more like a writhing torrent of emotions, and by that I mean as if I am on this ratty, old raft careening down this 70 degree cliff of churning rapids, which symbolize (dramatically) my thoughts.
While I am aware that there were a whole lot of adjectives with negative connotations in that last sentence, this is not always a bad thing. (I mean, technically it is because I should, above anything else, be trying to sustain stability.) Seemingly out of nowhere (but most probably due to external stimuli), suddenly everything is all right. This is fantastic because it gives me a control to monitor my moods, which I can gladly say have been stabilizing themselves lately after a rough change of seasons.
Most importantly, the calm that I am feeling now is such a good thing because it allows me to let my mistakes go. Ideally, I should be doing this constantly, but I'll take any break I can get. I've been doing pretty well at the whole self forgiveness thing (albeit that this is based on a survey of the last couple of weeks).
I don't honestly know where the hell I got these high expectations for myself, truth be told I think that it has shackled me more than inspired. l'm pretty sure I've never been a really big jerk, but if I show even the slightest bit of impoliteness (which 98% of the time is GROUNDLESS) I'm convinced that I wronged the universe (exaggerated, but you get the idea). It's probably the nicest thing in the world to have some release from the pressure, and I owe so much to the forgiveness of wonderful people.
Good night, and good night
While I am aware that there were a whole lot of adjectives with negative connotations in that last sentence, this is not always a bad thing. (I mean, technically it is because I should, above anything else, be trying to sustain stability.) Seemingly out of nowhere (but most probably due to external stimuli), suddenly everything is all right. This is fantastic because it gives me a control to monitor my moods, which I can gladly say have been stabilizing themselves lately after a rough change of seasons.
Most importantly, the calm that I am feeling now is such a good thing because it allows me to let my mistakes go. Ideally, I should be doing this constantly, but I'll take any break I can get. I've been doing pretty well at the whole self forgiveness thing (albeit that this is based on a survey of the last couple of weeks).
I don't honestly know where the hell I got these high expectations for myself, truth be told I think that it has shackled me more than inspired. l'm pretty sure I've never been a really big jerk, but if I show even the slightest bit of impoliteness (which 98% of the time is GROUNDLESS) I'm convinced that I wronged the universe (exaggerated, but you get the idea). It's probably the nicest thing in the world to have some release from the pressure, and I owe so much to the forgiveness of wonderful people.
Good night, and good night