seen a lot of sunrise lately.
Badass insomnia the past few days. I definitely hit a long rut, for the past while. But I think I'm breaking the surface of it now. I can tell by my hyperactive brain, clamouring to DO STUFF.
There are some things I'm proud of. That I've stopped beating myself up so badly for the days that it's an accomplishment to get one thing done. That I've stopped thinking I'm weak for having lows that last a few weeks. That those low points don't include the frantic self-destructiveness that they used to. That when I realize I'm distancing myself, I do what I did yesterday: text my close friends to hang out.
All things change, but some things change well. There's a lot to be grateful for, but I think it's been a long time since I stepped back and really thought about what I wanted. I need to make some time to meet with myself.
resolutions for now:
- Practice guitar & keyboard.
- Sing in the shower.
- Get some daily writing prompts and do them.
- Read some books.
- Watch new things.
- Submit some poems to contests.
There are some things I'm proud of. That I've stopped beating myself up so badly for the days that it's an accomplishment to get one thing done. That I've stopped thinking I'm weak for having lows that last a few weeks. That those low points don't include the frantic self-destructiveness that they used to. That when I realize I'm distancing myself, I do what I did yesterday: text my close friends to hang out.
All things change, but some things change well. There's a lot to be grateful for, but I think it's been a long time since I stepped back and really thought about what I wanted. I need to make some time to meet with myself.
resolutions for now:
- Practice guitar & keyboard.
- Sing in the shower.
- Get some daily writing prompts and do them.
- Read some books.
- Watch new things.
- Submit some poems to contests.