Get better already!
Today has been long and stressful. As hard as I try to shake it, I can't and it's bothering me. I need things to go back to how they were, but I don't think they're going to. I think I'm too serious when it comes to this. But the thing is that I've done the dating thing and I'm sick of doing it. I'm sick of the routine. I need to be in a relationship that's hopeful and might have a future or not be in one at all. As hard as it is, that's something I need, and since I can't have it, I'm upset about it. I need to put myself out there and become less available. I need to make plans and be busy because if I'm not, I'm just going to be dwelling on this.
I wish Andee would've came over, I'm kind of lonely. I don't know what to watch on TV either. I usually don't mind if I'm home on a friday night but tonight I do. I don't want to drink or anything, I just want to be around people. I doubt tomorrow will be any better, but I'm hoping that it is. I need to go to sleep and sleep in late tomorrow, I didn't get a wink of it last night. You know you're lagging on some sweet sleep time when you fall asleep in the car/at a friend's house/ on the kitchen table.
I love you.