Broken Record
Actually, it's not so much like a broken record, but more like a DVD with a scratch.
For some reason I feel like I should make that last sentence all in caps.
Jeez, I worked today, and I get to work again tomorrow, but only from 11-3, so straight working and no break, and I think from 11-12 we're just getting the store ready, phew* Hmm, I don't really have anything insightful to share I don't think. I believe I've done plenty of that over the past few days, maybe not. Something I do know is I'm sick of this "dating" label. If we're soley dating, then it should be just that, going out on dates, which would of course only consist of eating out and movies, because people don't go out anywhere else. I know, it doesn't make sense. I'm so confused, and really sick of this limbo garbage, seriously. I need to focus my time and energy on someone that has mutual feelings, not someone that makes me feel like the runner up. I drive down Howard Ave. and see couples out together for the night all the time. I see couples coming out of the theatre holding hands, or kissing during dinner...things like that, maybe I'm in the wrong type of relationship. That silly My Fair Brady show even had a scene where one of them was saying that you're willing to work to adapt to the other person, and that you take the other person into consideration. I'm sick of being myself, I feel like being completely cold like I used to be. Being cold-hearted really isn't all that great because then you wonder what could have been with the ties you severed, but right now it feels like it might be a route with a lot less pain. I always used to think I'd be single with no family in mind forever, I really did. I guess I was selfish with my own time. I used to do a lot of things by myself because I liked being by myself and didn't feel annoyance by someone else's company. As much as I enjoy meeting and talking to new people, I liked my space, A LOT. I would do people favors as long as I didn't have to do it with them..weird, but true. I was a little self-absorbed. It's very rare to find me asking someone else for a favor, I would assume someone would offer before I even asked, but I suppose me and maybe a handful of people are thoughtful enough to offer anything. I think I need to stop giving someone everything they want because I'm not getting everything I want. There are other people out there that aren't even close to what I have/used to have and they say they're in love. Something/someone is wrong, and it isn't me. I don't feel that great and is it not obvious enough as to why that might be?!
You know what's funny...I saw that 50 Cent movie last night...you know what else...it was a good movie, not an Angie movie, but it was good :)
P.S.
Do the majority of couples get married in the winter or something? Every other client that comes into our store is looking for something for the rehearsal and the actual wedding..lots of mommy's who's boys and girls are tying the knot, it's weird and scary because I'm only 21 and the only person I've ever been closest to in my life says they're never going to get married. Hopefully I won't be with someone in the future that's my everything and decides not to share it all with me, like I do for them. I'll probably be mid to late twenties...or forty...old enough so that when I can have a child I might die in the process, so much for that family! I know what I want. I want everyone to be happy. I guess for some people having wedding plans in their early twenties is normal..that was never the case for me. I haven't talked about that sort of thing to anyone because it hasn't really come to mind. IT REALLY BOTHERS ME THAT SOMEONE THINKS I'M THINKING ABOUT MARRIAGE WHEN I DON'T EVEN HAVE A BF. Maybe I should go out and meet one. I wasn't sure I'd ever get married, I still doubt I ever will. That kind of makes me sad to think about it, so change of subject. Forget about changing the subject, I'm just rambling and it's not making me feel any better. Goodnight and Goodluck (haha, I just really felt I had to say that).
Marinella, I know you would call me a "beautiful bride"...marry me? :) I made you a ring out of twisty-ties. We can live at your mommy's house, I'll keep the crystal dust-free, and we can go to mass together, and and..I know you wouldn't dump me at your convenience.
I don't like people that advertise false feelings on the internet, no one cares, you try too hard.-Bridgette, if you're out there, I know you would like that one :)
For some reason I feel like I should make that last sentence all in caps.
Jeez, I worked today, and I get to work again tomorrow, but only from 11-3, so straight working and no break, and I think from 11-12 we're just getting the store ready, phew* Hmm, I don't really have anything insightful to share I don't think. I believe I've done plenty of that over the past few days, maybe not. Something I do know is I'm sick of this "dating" label. If we're soley dating, then it should be just that, going out on dates, which would of course only consist of eating out and movies, because people don't go out anywhere else. I know, it doesn't make sense. I'm so confused, and really sick of this limbo garbage, seriously. I need to focus my time and energy on someone that has mutual feelings, not someone that makes me feel like the runner up. I drive down Howard Ave. and see couples out together for the night all the time. I see couples coming out of the theatre holding hands, or kissing during dinner...things like that, maybe I'm in the wrong type of relationship. That silly My Fair Brady show even had a scene where one of them was saying that you're willing to work to adapt to the other person, and that you take the other person into consideration. I'm sick of being myself, I feel like being completely cold like I used to be. Being cold-hearted really isn't all that great because then you wonder what could have been with the ties you severed, but right now it feels like it might be a route with a lot less pain. I always used to think I'd be single with no family in mind forever, I really did. I guess I was selfish with my own time. I used to do a lot of things by myself because I liked being by myself and didn't feel annoyance by someone else's company. As much as I enjoy meeting and talking to new people, I liked my space, A LOT. I would do people favors as long as I didn't have to do it with them..weird, but true. I was a little self-absorbed. It's very rare to find me asking someone else for a favor, I would assume someone would offer before I even asked, but I suppose me and maybe a handful of people are thoughtful enough to offer anything. I think I need to stop giving someone everything they want because I'm not getting everything I want. There are other people out there that aren't even close to what I have/used to have and they say they're in love. Something/someone is wrong, and it isn't me. I don't feel that great and is it not obvious enough as to why that might be?!
You know what's funny...I saw that 50 Cent movie last night...you know what else...it was a good movie, not an Angie movie, but it was good :)
P.S.
Do the majority of couples get married in the winter or something? Every other client that comes into our store is looking for something for the rehearsal and the actual wedding..lots of mommy's who's boys and girls are tying the knot, it's weird and scary because I'm only 21 and the only person I've ever been closest to in my life says they're never going to get married. Hopefully I won't be with someone in the future that's my everything and decides not to share it all with me, like I do for them. I'll probably be mid to late twenties...or forty...old enough so that when I can have a child I might die in the process, so much for that family! I know what I want. I want everyone to be happy. I guess for some people having wedding plans in their early twenties is normal..that was never the case for me. I haven't talked about that sort of thing to anyone because it hasn't really come to mind. IT REALLY BOTHERS ME THAT SOMEONE THINKS I'M THINKING ABOUT MARRIAGE WHEN I DON'T EVEN HAVE A BF. Maybe I should go out and meet one. I wasn't sure I'd ever get married, I still doubt I ever will. That kind of makes me sad to think about it, so change of subject. Forget about changing the subject, I'm just rambling and it's not making me feel any better. Goodnight and Goodluck (haha, I just really felt I had to say that).
Marinella, I know you would call me a "beautiful bride"...marry me? :) I made you a ring out of twisty-ties. We can live at your mommy's house, I'll keep the crystal dust-free, and we can go to mass together, and and..I know you wouldn't dump me at your convenience.
I don't like people that advertise false feelings on the internet, no one cares, you try too hard.-Bridgette, if you're out there, I know you would like that one :)