This is a test and only a test
2002 is gone and unlike the gopher I'll venture forth, shadow or no shadow. Last year was not impossible but it definitely tested my limits of endurance. I'm not exactly proud of how I handled all situations. I've had to crawl back and apologize (and more than zero is too many). I've lost a few friends, made a few, said things that needed to be said, and also lashed out.
My son is smarter, taller, and needs me more than ever. I'm simply amazed at how quickly he changes. Sometimes I wonder how horrible my life would have been if Jen & I had married when he was conceived. But truth be told, we would have fought and Cory would have had two divorced parents that had a bitterness towards each other. Not that we're best friends but at least we can talk to one another. Custody is still a possibility in my mind.
My mind is still to cluttered at the moment to figure out what I'm doing. Esther's death is bugging me a bit more than what I would have thought. Most of it is unfinished business. We parted on a negative tone back in May.
My son is smarter, taller, and needs me more than ever. I'm simply amazed at how quickly he changes. Sometimes I wonder how horrible my life would have been if Jen & I had married when he was conceived. But truth be told, we would have fought and Cory would have had two divorced parents that had a bitterness towards each other. Not that we're best friends but at least we can talk to one another. Custody is still a possibility in my mind.
My mind is still to cluttered at the moment to figure out what I'm doing. Esther's death is bugging me a bit more than what I would have thought. Most of it is unfinished business. We parted on a negative tone back in May.