so i had really high expectations

Nov 28, 2012 22:32

and that made me happy in different ways than my expectations led me to want.

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amonitrate November 29 2012, 18:08:55 UTC
I CAN'T EVEN.

THE BIRD REPRESENTS GOD.

EVERYONE'S LITTLE FACE.

CAS RUMMAGING THROUGH DEAN'S TRAVEL KIT. HE CAN'T GO BACK TO HEAAAVENNN. UNTIL NAOMI RINGS HER LITTLE BELL.

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amonitrate November 29 2012, 19:25:34 UTC
YES YES YES OKAY YES THAT'S IT LIKE. FIGURING OUT HOW CAS TICKS BUT ALSO THIS ISN'T AS FRAUGHT A MOMENT AS BEFORE SO THERE'S THE TIME AND BREATHING SPACE TO ALLOW HIM TO DO IT DIFFERENT AND NOT JUST REACT AND MAYBE HE GETS IT MORE, AFTER HEARING CAS WANTED TO STAY IN PURGATORY, FELT LIKE HE DESERVED TO STAY THERE AND MAN JUST. AUUUUGH EVERYONE TALKING OUT THEIR FEELINGS I CAN'T TAKE IT. LIKE, I THINK DEAN IS USED TO THINKING OF HIMSELF AS THE MOST MESSED UP GUY IN THE ROOM AND LAST EPISODE MIGHT HAVE CRACKED THAT OPEN A BIT?

POTS AND KETTTTLES.

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amonitrate November 29 2012, 20:29:57 UTC
YES LISTENING THEY HAVE TIME TO LISTEN AUGHHHHH. I don't think Dean gets what's going on with Cas, but yeah he gets that *something* is going on, and this is so far from NO ONE CARES THAT YOU'RE BROKEN and auuuuuuuuugh. But yeah I think the key is maybe learning (maybe not intentionally but intuitively) to use the down time instead of waiting till everything is exploding in their faces to be like OH HEY SOMETHING'S UP? WELL SHIT. I mean even last week, with Dean asking Sam why he feels like shit if it wasn't his fault, and poor sleep deprived Sam telling him "survivor's guilt" and aaaaaaagh show. Like, you have TOTALLY EARNED THESE EMOTIONAL ANVILS like, they would be anvils if not for 7 FREAKING SEASONS WORTH of ~feelings behind them. Instead they feel real like emotional shorthand between people who know each other that well. Or not maybe know as in ~understand but ... yeah. People who have long, intense experiences with one another? ahhaha whatever but. BLINKING NEON LETTERS VISIBLE FROM SPACE ( ... )

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amonitrate November 29 2012, 21:08:07 UTC
SO BIG ( ... )

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amonitrate December 9 2012, 15:50:53 UTC
Oh man, I haven't rewatched most of s7 yet. And that one kills me.

but I think it's just Dean and Cas have changed so much, and so how can Dean&Cas stay the same? I'm reminded of what you said about how an OTP itself becomes a character, so like sometimes Sam&Dean or Dean&Cas feel different from what they WERE, but if you just focus on Dean, Sam, and Cas as three discrete entities, WHICH THEY ARE, it actually makes all the sense in the world.

Yes, this. I think (jumping ahead to the current episode and the inevitable fandom fallout of WHY ARE THEY FIGHTING sam vs. dean round 873) this is again, entirely the point. SAMNDEAN are not a unit, they are not a character, their relationship is made up of two people who have had a whole lot of shit happen to them and a whole lot of unresolved stuff, and so yeah.

THANKFULLY BENNY HASN'T DIED YET. I'M STILL SCARED WE'LL GET LIKE, SUICIDE-BY-HUNTER AT SOME POINT.

NAOMI SLEEPER AGENT SHENANIGANS WHY IS IT STILL ONLY DECEMBER.

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amonitrate December 9 2012, 17:51:15 UTC
OH GOD OKAY NOW I AM IMAGINING IT GOING DOWN LIKE 'HEART' IN SEASON 2. THANKS. possibly dean wouldn't be actually weeping anymore because this is 7 years later and he's a lot harder but OH GOD. SAM OFFERS TO DO IT AND DEAN SAYS NO, IT HAS TO BE HIM, HE OWES BENNY THAT.

(I don't want benny to die but I also have a hard on for scenes like that, I am a cliche)

mostly I want Benny and Sam to have to team up for some reason. maybe vampires kidnap Dean and are eating him and Benny can smell them and he and Sam track them down! oh my god my cliche, I am so sorry. I just want Dean to get bitten by a vampire. IF benny's gonna be all noble and not bite him, someone else will have to step up to the plate, with bonus Benny and Sam reluctant teamwork.

OH MY GOD THAT ONE STILL WHERE SHE'S LOOMING OVER HIM AND PEOPLE ARE ALL NO DON'T HURT HIM AND I'M ALL YES YES HURT HIM YES NAOMI LOOM MORE.

oh god i'm scared. what if he actually asks for help this time what if.

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amonitrate December 9 2012, 19:07:58 UTC
ahahaha nah, the single tear is often a bit ott, but I love it, I know what I am.

I can't be too invested in it because I'M TOO INVESTED IN WHAT'S HAPPENING NOW, and I odn't even have the time and energy to worry about things that far. I'M SURE I WILL CRY ABOUT WHATEVER WILL COME EVENTUALLY.YEAH, that's basically where I am all the time with this series, I try not to think too far ahead, I'm too busy wrapped up in the present anyway, and often the series does something I'm not expecting in a million years anyway (the end of season 6, 6.19-6.21, never in a million years would I have predicted that ( ... )

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amonitrate December 9 2012, 19:58:58 UTC
HE SAID HE'D BE BACK AND IT WAS A PROMISE SHOW DO YOU HEAR ME. SHAKES FIST.

oh man good call about streamlined heaven and streamlined hell. i mean, i'm sure the parallels are at some point deliberate in at least portraying them both as bureaucracies, there's a reason the angels have always been in business suits. That's a deliberate choice, you know? maybe naomi just represents a different flavor of bureaucracy, the kind that talks about growing the synergy or whatever instead of just saying you're laying off people.

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