What I've Found Is Past Tense
So yeah...super busy. No time for anything...no time for myself. NO TIME! Thank God I have a 3 day weekend, thank you fourth of july.
Soooo much has happened since my last entry. My heart has been kicked and picked up again in less than a month. First off...Ryan...heh Ryan...
Ryan is sorta kinda back in my life. When I think of it I make this scrunched up face...haha. We've been talking again and...its hard to say. Ryan has been the ONE in my life, the guy that has meant soooo much to me. Now...deep in my heart I felt that in one way or another, we would end up with each other. He told me that he felt that way about me...then it snapped in my head that he was right.
So I didn't realize that I WANTED to TRY to be with him again until I went on a horrible blind date. After I was out of that date, the first thing that was on my mind was Ryan...and nothing else. This confuses me...I thought my Ryan chapter was over with. But now everything seems so clear. Even though we're not together right now, I know in my heart that he was made for me. He was put on this earth for ME!
I invited him to be my "date" for my cousins wedding on July 31st. Of course he said yes...so he will be traveling to my hometown to escort me to the wedding. I haven't touched him in forever...it's going to be just like our first date. We were soooo nervous on our first date. After a semester of flirting...we finally were able to get together over a wonderful italian dinner. Wow...such memories of my first love.
*COLLECTIVE SIGH*
A lot of other shit has happened to me...but I'm too tired to even get into it. Basically old ex from high school contacted me...expressed his love for me...and then continued to tell me he was getting married next week...WTF? School...SUCKS. Work...SUCKS. Being sick...SUCKS BALLS.
Incubus I still LOVE YOU!
Soooo much has happened since my last entry. My heart has been kicked and picked up again in less than a month. First off...Ryan...heh Ryan...
Ryan is sorta kinda back in my life. When I think of it I make this scrunched up face...haha. We've been talking again and...its hard to say. Ryan has been the ONE in my life, the guy that has meant soooo much to me. Now...deep in my heart I felt that in one way or another, we would end up with each other. He told me that he felt that way about me...then it snapped in my head that he was right.
So I didn't realize that I WANTED to TRY to be with him again until I went on a horrible blind date. After I was out of that date, the first thing that was on my mind was Ryan...and nothing else. This confuses me...I thought my Ryan chapter was over with. But now everything seems so clear. Even though we're not together right now, I know in my heart that he was made for me. He was put on this earth for ME!
I invited him to be my "date" for my cousins wedding on July 31st. Of course he said yes...so he will be traveling to my hometown to escort me to the wedding. I haven't touched him in forever...it's going to be just like our first date. We were soooo nervous on our first date. After a semester of flirting...we finally were able to get together over a wonderful italian dinner. Wow...such memories of my first love.
*COLLECTIVE SIGH*
A lot of other shit has happened to me...but I'm too tired to even get into it. Basically old ex from high school contacted me...expressed his love for me...and then continued to tell me he was getting married next week...WTF? School...SUCKS. Work...SUCKS. Being sick...SUCKS BALLS.
Incubus I still LOVE YOU!