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I was on the verge of panic attack for the majority of the day today, and i'm not completely sure why. Okay, I know why, but the reasons seem so...dumb. Literally. This was all over a boy, and school, work, friendships, and where in the world my life is going right now. I'm only twenty, this is not stuff I should be worrying about right now. That's just a part of it though - I'm only twenty and there's so much I want to do. I want to move to Europe. I don't care where, but preferably somewhere they speak english or spanish. I want to live there for longer than I was there this summer, maybe half a year, or a whole year, and work, and completely immerse myself in something different. Ann Arbor is one giant circle, and everything I left this summer is back. Granted, I'm certainly not where I was six months ago, but Ann Arbor is worse than middle school hallways. I'm so lucky I have people from the Salamanca program in every one of my four spanish classes. The friends I made there are unlike any friends I think I've ever had. Not to mention it's finally so nice to be able to have a strong friend base at UM.
I wish I had the strength and guts to drop everything and move to Europe for a while and work. A friend I made in Salamanca offered me a job working at one of the bars there, and I'm sure there are a few other opportunities available in Salamanca for me. Even Ibiza for the summer. To work on an island in the mediterranean. wow.wow.wow. Too bad I don't have the money nor the resources to be able to actually pull something like that off.
School is already overwhelming, and I hate being on the five and a half year plan. I'm so happy I actually get to finish my spanish minor, however i'm not sure how i feel about my mini nursing hiatus this semester. There's nothing I would rather do than be a nurse, so that part is ok. I recently met a guy from Spain, and he's living in Ann Arbor now working as a pilot for some international cargo airline, and has (obviously) been able to travel all over the world. It was so nice talking to him, going between spanish and english sharing stories about spain and hearing about his travels. Words cannot describe how much I want to be traveling the world, too. I've always loved traveling, but it wasn't until Europe that I realized it was a passion. And now here I am again. Stuck in Ann Arbor, surrounded by Spanish and reminders and the ever present longing to get out of here.
What I need to do is appreciate what I have, and cherish the fact that I was actually able to go to Europe and see everything I did, which I am incredibly thankful for. I just need to take everything one step at a time, and poco a poco it will all fall into place. Poco a poco, gracias a Javi. There's a whole new can of worms - Javi. Trying not to think about it.
I wish I had the strength and guts to drop everything and move to Europe for a while and work. A friend I made in Salamanca offered me a job working at one of the bars there, and I'm sure there are a few other opportunities available in Salamanca for me. Even Ibiza for the summer. To work on an island in the mediterranean. wow.wow.wow. Too bad I don't have the money nor the resources to be able to actually pull something like that off.
School is already overwhelming, and I hate being on the five and a half year plan. I'm so happy I actually get to finish my spanish minor, however i'm not sure how i feel about my mini nursing hiatus this semester. There's nothing I would rather do than be a nurse, so that part is ok. I recently met a guy from Spain, and he's living in Ann Arbor now working as a pilot for some international cargo airline, and has (obviously) been able to travel all over the world. It was so nice talking to him, going between spanish and english sharing stories about spain and hearing about his travels. Words cannot describe how much I want to be traveling the world, too. I've always loved traveling, but it wasn't until Europe that I realized it was a passion. And now here I am again. Stuck in Ann Arbor, surrounded by Spanish and reminders and the ever present longing to get out of here.
What I need to do is appreciate what I have, and cherish the fact that I was actually able to go to Europe and see everything I did, which I am incredibly thankful for. I just need to take everything one step at a time, and poco a poco it will all fall into place. Poco a poco, gracias a Javi. There's a whole new can of worms - Javi. Trying not to think about it.