all you ever wanted to know about ashley and then some.
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)
✓ I miss somebody right now. (I'd rather not talk about him.)
✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (It makes me feel stupid.)
✓ I own lots of books. (Lots and lots of books.)
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.
✓ I love to play video games. (Dude . . . freaking Clank is voiced by the same man who is Sesshoumaru's voice actor. O.o WTF?!)
✓ I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies. ("Wizard of Odds" anyone?)
✓ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (I always get the "Ashley, I'm going to love you forever!!!" sort.)
✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes. (All the time. Fuck.)
✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (It's handy for opening new CD cases.)
* * * * *
× I have broken someone's bones.
✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (No comment?)
× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times. (I hate being alone in my house at night.)
× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (Never.)
× I need/want money right now. (I'm a communist.)
✓ I love sushi. (Yum.)
✓ I talk really, really fast.
× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair. (I did up until recently. Now I look like an emo boy.)
× I have lost money in Las Vegas.
✓ I have at least one sibling. (3 half. 2 step.)
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (I don't need to fake any of those things.)
× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look. (I'm hott.)
× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
✓ I am usually pessimistic. (I like to call it "realistic".)
✓ I have a lot of mood swings. (Bipolar much?)
✓ I think prostitution should be legalized. (For sure.)
× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent. (I have MANY hidden talents.)
× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (I'm never hyper no matter how much sugar I have.)
× I have a lot of friends. (I have a lot of enemies.)
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.
✓ I enjoy talking on the phone. (Surprisingly.)
× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. (I would never wear such things out of the house.)
× I love to shop and/or window shop.
× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. (NEVER!)
✓ I have a mobile phone. (I'm not proud of it.)
✓ I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (In the past six days.)
✓ I've rejected someone before. (Many times.)
✓ I currently like/love someone. (Again . . . I'd rather not talk about him.)
× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
× I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before.
× I've called the cops on a friend before.
× I'm not allergic to anything. (The sun.)
✓ I have a lot to learn. (Who doesn't?)
× I am shy around the opposite sex. (I'm only shy around people I want to get to know. They fluster me.)
× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.
✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. (Hahaha. Depends on who you ask.)
× I own the "South Park" movie.
✓ I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal. (I'll use any excuse to avoid work.)
× I enjoy some country music. (Never.)
✓ I would die for my best friends.
✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
× I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (I shouldn't have to.)
× I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
× I have dated a close friend's ex. (Hahaha. Depends on who you ask.)
× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.
✓ Democrat. (For life.)
× Republican. (NEEEEEVVVVEEEEERRRRRRR!!!!!!!!)
× I don't even know what I am.
✓ I am punk rockish. (I guess. I hate neo-punks.)
✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
✓ I study for tests most of the time.
× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).
✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now. (I'm pretty much rock and roll.)
× I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can. (I'm a closet hippy.)
× I have jumped off a bridge.
× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. (Never.)
✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (Becoming friends with the band members of CAKE.)
✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument. (Most percussion instruments.)
✓ I hate office jobs.
× I went to college out of state.
× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.
✓ I have thrown up from crying too much. (It SUCKS.)
✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. (Depends on who you ask.)
× I fall for the worst people.
× I adore bright colours. (Never.)
× I usually like covers better than originals.
✓ I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays. (It's not my fucking neighborhood bar and grill.)
✓ I can pick up things with my toes. (My stepfather can open a beer can with his.)
× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse. (And been bucked off.)
✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in.
✓ I talk in my sleep.
✓ I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century. (Old soul.)
✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (I live vicariously through Kag/Sess fanfiction.)
× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.
✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
✓ I am a caffeine junkie. (Coffee. Coffee. Coffee.)
✓ I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
✓ I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner. (Red please.)
✓ I'm an artist. (It's my major, yo.)
✓ I am ambidextrous. (At golf.)
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony. (I'd join a nudist colony even if I had to see other people naked. I loves being naked.)
× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.
✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
✓ I have lived in either three different states or countries. (I wish it was "countries". Alas, I've lived in Iowa, South Dakota, and Indiana.)
× I am extremely flexible. (Everyone is my family except me!)
× I love hugs more than kisses. (I don't love physical contact.)
× I want to own my own business.
✓ I smoke. (What?!)
× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal. (C'est vrai.)
✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. (I hide it well.)
× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits. (Wish I could pull it off.)
× I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me. (Whatev.)
× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before. (I'm a horrible poker player.)
✓ I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal. (Sort of.)
× I can't stand being alone. (This used to be true. I still don't want to talk about him.)
✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.
× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again. (Um . . . yuck?)
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
✓ I'm a judgmental asshole. (I prefer judgmental bitch.)
× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent. (I wish.)
✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. (Many many times.)
× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. (I'm confident in my own abilities.)
× I am a Libertarian.
× I can speak more than one language. (Working on it.)
× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV. (I heart books.)
× I like reading fact more than fiction.
✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. (Many many times.)
× I have no piercings.
✓ I have spent the night in a train station or other public place. (Airport.)
× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it. (Who hasn't?)
× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.
✓ The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver. (Yuck.)
× I have hit someone with a dead fish. (Hahaha. I wish I had.)
✓ I am compulsively honest. (I have a hard time lying.)
× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
✓ I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex. (Androngyny is hot.)
× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
✓ I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
✓ I dislike milk. (It's unnatural for any species to drink the milk of another animal and no other species can drink milk after infancy. Soy is the way to go.)
× I obsessively wash my hands.
✓ I always carry something significant around with me. (Those of you who have seen my "purse" understand this.)
✓ Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair. (I've done it before.)
✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother. (I've had a long time to become accustomed to not having her around.)
× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.
× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.
× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts. (I hate low humor.)
✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing. (Why would I? It's a job.)
✓ I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.
✓ I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.
× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other. (Love is all you need motherfuckers.)
× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
✓ I love to sing. (Where no one can hear me.)
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
× I have a custom-built computer.
✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it. (Clint Eastwood's.)
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.
× I've gone skinny-dipping.
× I've performed in three plays.
✓ I enjoy burritos.
× I'm Irish and loving it.
× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!
✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'. (Ew. Fun.)
× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes. (The past shapes us as people regardless of mistakes.)
✓ I sleep more than 12 hours a day. (On good days.)
× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
✓ I need more time to myself.
× I wish I was more open-minded.
✓ I hope that I go really prematurely grey. (And I hope my hair is like my grandfather's.)
✓ I download songs from the internet.
× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend. (What the fuck is "Death Note"?!)
✓ I say random things to freak people out. (But not on purpose.)
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note. (WTF?)
× I love playing Truth or Dare.
× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone. (For sure. Ani DiFranco sings my life.)
× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.
✓ I think this survey is particularly long. (But I have nothing better to do.)
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.
× I can only hate someone that I love. (I'm an equal opportunity hater.)
✓ I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks. (Their coffee is f'ing weak. You have to order two shots of espresso.)
I have no life.
✓ I miss somebody right now. (I'd rather not talk about him.)
✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (It makes me feel stupid.)
✓ I own lots of books. (Lots and lots of books.)
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.
✓ I love to play video games. (Dude . . . freaking Clank is voiced by the same man who is Sesshoumaru's voice actor. O.o WTF?!)
✓ I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies. ("Wizard of Odds" anyone?)
✓ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (I always get the "Ashley, I'm going to love you forever!!!" sort.)
✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes. (All the time. Fuck.)
✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (It's handy for opening new CD cases.)
* * * * *
× I have broken someone's bones.
✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (No comment?)
× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times. (I hate being alone in my house at night.)
× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (Never.)
× I need/want money right now. (I'm a communist.)
✓ I love sushi. (Yum.)
✓ I talk really, really fast.
× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair. (I did up until recently. Now I look like an emo boy.)
× I have lost money in Las Vegas.
✓ I have at least one sibling. (3 half. 2 step.)
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (I don't need to fake any of those things.)
× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look. (I'm hott.)
× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
✓ I am usually pessimistic. (I like to call it "realistic".)
✓ I have a lot of mood swings. (Bipolar much?)
✓ I think prostitution should be legalized. (For sure.)
× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent. (I have MANY hidden talents.)
× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (I'm never hyper no matter how much sugar I have.)
× I have a lot of friends. (I have a lot of enemies.)
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.
✓ I enjoy talking on the phone. (Surprisingly.)
× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. (I would never wear such things out of the house.)
× I love to shop and/or window shop.
× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. (NEVER!)
✓ I have a mobile phone. (I'm not proud of it.)
✓ I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (In the past six days.)
✓ I've rejected someone before. (Many times.)
✓ I currently like/love someone. (Again . . . I'd rather not talk about him.)
× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
× I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before.
× I've called the cops on a friend before.
× I'm not allergic to anything. (The sun.)
✓ I have a lot to learn. (Who doesn't?)
× I am shy around the opposite sex. (I'm only shy around people I want to get to know. They fluster me.)
× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.
✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. (Hahaha. Depends on who you ask.)
× I own the "South Park" movie.
✓ I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal. (I'll use any excuse to avoid work.)
× I enjoy some country music. (Never.)
✓ I would die for my best friends.
✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
× I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (I shouldn't have to.)
× I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
× I have dated a close friend's ex. (Hahaha. Depends on who you ask.)
× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.
✓ Democrat. (For life.)
× Republican. (NEEEEEVVVVEEEEERRRRRRR!!!!!!!!)
× I don't even know what I am.
✓ I am punk rockish. (I guess. I hate neo-punks.)
✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
✓ I study for tests most of the time.
× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).
✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now. (I'm pretty much rock and roll.)
× I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can. (I'm a closet hippy.)
× I have jumped off a bridge.
× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. (Never.)
✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (Becoming friends with the band members of CAKE.)
✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument. (Most percussion instruments.)
✓ I hate office jobs.
× I went to college out of state.
× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.
✓ I have thrown up from crying too much. (It SUCKS.)
✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. (Depends on who you ask.)
× I fall for the worst people.
× I adore bright colours. (Never.)
× I usually like covers better than originals.
✓ I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays. (It's not my fucking neighborhood bar and grill.)
✓ I can pick up things with my toes. (My stepfather can open a beer can with his.)
× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse. (And been bucked off.)
✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in.
✓ I talk in my sleep.
✓ I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century. (Old soul.)
✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (I live vicariously through Kag/Sess fanfiction.)
× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.
✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
✓ I am a caffeine junkie. (Coffee. Coffee. Coffee.)
✓ I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
✓ I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner. (Red please.)
✓ I'm an artist. (It's my major, yo.)
✓ I am ambidextrous. (At golf.)
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony. (I'd join a nudist colony even if I had to see other people naked. I loves being naked.)
× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.
✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
✓ I have lived in either three different states or countries. (I wish it was "countries". Alas, I've lived in Iowa, South Dakota, and Indiana.)
× I am extremely flexible. (Everyone is my family except me!)
× I love hugs more than kisses. (I don't love physical contact.)
× I want to own my own business.
✓ I smoke. (What?!)
× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal. (C'est vrai.)
✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. (I hide it well.)
× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits. (Wish I could pull it off.)
× I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me. (Whatev.)
× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before. (I'm a horrible poker player.)
✓ I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal. (Sort of.)
× I can't stand being alone. (This used to be true. I still don't want to talk about him.)
✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.
× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again. (Um . . . yuck?)
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
✓ I'm a judgmental asshole. (I prefer judgmental bitch.)
× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent. (I wish.)
✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. (Many many times.)
× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. (I'm confident in my own abilities.)
× I am a Libertarian.
× I can speak more than one language. (Working on it.)
× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV. (I heart books.)
× I like reading fact more than fiction.
✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. (Many many times.)
× I have no piercings.
✓ I have spent the night in a train station or other public place. (Airport.)
× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it. (Who hasn't?)
× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.
✓ The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver. (Yuck.)
× I have hit someone with a dead fish. (Hahaha. I wish I had.)
✓ I am compulsively honest. (I have a hard time lying.)
× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
✓ I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex. (Androngyny is hot.)
× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
✓ I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
✓ I dislike milk. (It's unnatural for any species to drink the milk of another animal and no other species can drink milk after infancy. Soy is the way to go.)
× I obsessively wash my hands.
✓ I always carry something significant around with me. (Those of you who have seen my "purse" understand this.)
✓ Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair. (I've done it before.)
✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother. (I've had a long time to become accustomed to not having her around.)
× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.
× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.
× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts. (I hate low humor.)
✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing. (Why would I? It's a job.)
✓ I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.
✓ I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.
× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other. (Love is all you need motherfuckers.)
× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
✓ I love to sing. (Where no one can hear me.)
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
× I have a custom-built computer.
✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it. (Clint Eastwood's.)
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.
× I've gone skinny-dipping.
× I've performed in three plays.
✓ I enjoy burritos.
× I'm Irish and loving it.
× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!
✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'. (Ew. Fun.)
× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes. (The past shapes us as people regardless of mistakes.)
✓ I sleep more than 12 hours a day. (On good days.)
× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
✓ I need more time to myself.
× I wish I was more open-minded.
✓ I hope that I go really prematurely grey. (And I hope my hair is like my grandfather's.)
✓ I download songs from the internet.
× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend. (What the fuck is "Death Note"?!)
✓ I say random things to freak people out. (But not on purpose.)
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note. (WTF?)
× I love playing Truth or Dare.
× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone. (For sure. Ani DiFranco sings my life.)
× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.
✓ I think this survey is particularly long. (But I have nothing better to do.)
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.
× I can only hate someone that I love. (I'm an equal opportunity hater.)
✓ I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks. (Their coffee is f'ing weak. You have to order two shots of espresso.)
I have no life.