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God-damnit.. of all the places I could have found the perfect man...
So he is in the mid-west. I can't do that! I can't be there and no matter how many awesome conversations we have it does not change the fact that we haven't seen each other in 9 months. I knew from the start that another nice girl could come along at any moment and ruin this beautiful thing we had, especially if she lives any closer than I do... and guess what?! IT HAPPENED!!!
So what to do now. I feel like such an idiot for lending my heart to a guy who lives so far away. Just when my life seemed to be getting better, I hit a wall. I should have seen the signs anyway. And what really sucks is that I can't hate him because he told me right away that he was gonna start going out with her!! He's just that good.
Sad. And it is damn near impossible to find a descent guy who does not smoke or blaze down here in SD. This whole thing is killing me, it's making my heart and my head ache. I don't even have a good book to immerse my mind in.
Step 1: Delete all texts and stuff saved
Step 2: Avoid facebook like the plague.. at least for one whole week.
Step 3: Go to the library
Step 4: Read about world happenings so as to remember that there are people going through worse trauma.
Step 5: Find guys who don't smoke AND are not involved with theatre.
Damn it hurts.
I'll just add this to the pile of shavings beneath my wooden heart.
So he is in the mid-west. I can't do that! I can't be there and no matter how many awesome conversations we have it does not change the fact that we haven't seen each other in 9 months. I knew from the start that another nice girl could come along at any moment and ruin this beautiful thing we had, especially if she lives any closer than I do... and guess what?! IT HAPPENED!!!
So what to do now. I feel like such an idiot for lending my heart to a guy who lives so far away. Just when my life seemed to be getting better, I hit a wall. I should have seen the signs anyway. And what really sucks is that I can't hate him because he told me right away that he was gonna start going out with her!! He's just that good.
Sad. And it is damn near impossible to find a descent guy who does not smoke or blaze down here in SD. This whole thing is killing me, it's making my heart and my head ache. I don't even have a good book to immerse my mind in.
Step 1: Delete all texts and stuff saved
Step 2: Avoid facebook like the plague.. at least for one whole week.
Step 3: Go to the library
Step 4: Read about world happenings so as to remember that there are people going through worse trauma.
Step 5: Find guys who don't smoke AND are not involved with theatre.
Damn it hurts.
I'll just add this to the pile of shavings beneath my wooden heart.