Man
I stink at this keeping a journal thing. Alas.
School has not been going well this semester, but at least I know why now. Mono was making me sleepy, not any unusually high level of laziness on my part. (... Right? Well that's what I'm telling myself, anyway.)
So this is my third day home, by myself, all day, doing nothing. I keep trying to do my reading for school, but it makes me fall asleep. 'Cause it takes brain power? Because I really am lazy? Who knows?
In any case, reading stuff online is SO MUCH easier. So I vanity-Googled myself (again ... I am so internet vain) and found something new: a post I made in a Gaia Online Neil Gaiman guild, introducing myself, when I was 17:
(insert witty and captivating greeting here) My name is Lily Beauvilliers, I currently have 17 years chronologically speaking, though some say I'm mentally two. (Others that I'm mentally fifty . . . *laughs*). My hobbies include being a techie for my highschool (but I'm a senior! So I have to train the baby techies!!), writing (mostly short stories/my children's novel), singing, playing (read: mutilating) the clarinet and and mountain dulcimer, reading anything that peaks my interest, editing, organizing, writing for, and drawing for my school's lit. mag., physics (<3), and anime (particularly shonen-ai. So call me a fangirl.)
My favorite foods are strawberries, artichokes, mushrooms, and dark chocolate. My favorite color is green. *shock shock* My favorite farm animal is cows (which is good because next year I shall be attending Bucknell, which is in Lewisburg, which is the middle of cow country!). My favorite sexual position is abstinence because I am a prude, and a moralistic one at that. My religion is atheism. If you do not think atheism is a religion, PM me and we can duke it out.
As far as my Gaiman experience goes, I've read Good Omens, Neverwhere, Stardust, Coraline (can't forget the lovely children's books!) and the complete Sandman series, including Endless Nights. I was introduced Gaiman's writing when I attended the CTY program (which I have more aptly named Nerd Camp) and met many huge fans of Sandman. I hold a special place in my heart for Coraline, American Gods, and Sandman. I didn't think Neverwhere was particularly fantastic, but it wasn't awful.
Entertainment . . . my favorite bands include, but are not limited to, They Might Be Giants, Our Lady Peace, U2, Caribou (formerly called Manitoba), and Led Zepplin. I think I might be falling in love with Bette Midler, but I've only listened to one of her records once, so that remains to be seen. (I am rather proud of my small but growing record collection.) My favorite author of all time is E.M. Forster, but David Sedaris and Neil Gaiman are also pretty far up there. I'm not a big one for poetry, but I enjoyed a book of Tennyson's works. Oh, yes, I also want to be Anne Shirley when I grow up. I don't watch TV with the exception of anime that I purchase, though I do prefer manga. Fruits Basket is the best thing to happen to my mood and self-esteem ever.
I am loquacious . . .
FINALLY: My favorite Endless . . . the issue here is that I'm a teenage girl, so my hormones tell me that the new Dream and Desire are by far the best. The artwork says Delirium does beat all. Personalities? Death and Destruction (I prefer to think of him as Creation, but that doesn't start with a D!) are awesome. I wish we KNEW more about Despair. I don't want to know anything about Destiny. Overall, I would say Morpheus is my favorite, except sometimes the angsty emo thing gets on my nerves. And it would seem Daniel Dream will develop to have smaller doses of angst. Less angst = me more happy = the new Dream all the way.
And that's me in a (coco)nut shell.
I completely recognize this person. She's a little bit more adamantly geeky than I am now ... but not THAT much more. She's definitely more open than I am now. She thinks she's fascinating, while I now have a creeping fear that I, like most people, am terribly dull. But aside from these little signs of immaturity, the basic person is someone I completely recognize.
Which is VERY WEIRD. Because I've, you know, gone to college and stuff. Shouldn't I be some radically different person? I have a new favorite color, and a new favorite farm animal, but I still obsess over things like my favorite color and farm animal. I have approximately the same favorite books, give or take a few (shouldn't this be very different?) and the same favorite anime, with a few additions.
If you'd asked me yesterday how I thought current me compares with high school senior me, I'd tell you that they were completely different. High school senior me wasn't really excited about college. High school senior me felt like she always had something to prove. High school senior me kept up this phony facade of being "cute" and "giggly" and a "prude" etc. just so she could be a fairy girl, the cute one in her group of friends. Now I don't give a flip who I am in my group of friends -- I let me just be, and change, instead of casting myself as one thing or another. Even if it was faked, I had a strong sense of identity, which is mostly gone now ... at 22, I realize just how young I am, and I'm experimenting with ideas of myself.
Yet something fundamental has not changed. Maybe having a name as distinctive as "Lily" does that to you. There's a part of me that will always be this particular "Lily." Unless I get Alzheimer's. But until then, I think I'll try to figure out what that "Lily" is.
School has not been going well this semester, but at least I know why now. Mono was making me sleepy, not any unusually high level of laziness on my part. (... Right? Well that's what I'm telling myself, anyway.)
So this is my third day home, by myself, all day, doing nothing. I keep trying to do my reading for school, but it makes me fall asleep. 'Cause it takes brain power? Because I really am lazy? Who knows?
In any case, reading stuff online is SO MUCH easier. So I vanity-Googled myself (again ... I am so internet vain) and found something new: a post I made in a Gaia Online Neil Gaiman guild, introducing myself, when I was 17:
(insert witty and captivating greeting here) My name is Lily Beauvilliers, I currently have 17 years chronologically speaking, though some say I'm mentally two. (Others that I'm mentally fifty . . . *laughs*). My hobbies include being a techie for my highschool (but I'm a senior! So I have to train the baby techies!!), writing (mostly short stories/my children's novel), singing, playing (read: mutilating) the clarinet and and mountain dulcimer, reading anything that peaks my interest, editing, organizing, writing for, and drawing for my school's lit. mag., physics (<3), and anime (particularly shonen-ai. So call me a fangirl.)
My favorite foods are strawberries, artichokes, mushrooms, and dark chocolate. My favorite color is green. *shock shock* My favorite farm animal is cows (which is good because next year I shall be attending Bucknell, which is in Lewisburg, which is the middle of cow country!). My favorite sexual position is abstinence because I am a prude, and a moralistic one at that. My religion is atheism. If you do not think atheism is a religion, PM me and we can duke it out.
As far as my Gaiman experience goes, I've read Good Omens, Neverwhere, Stardust, Coraline (can't forget the lovely children's books!) and the complete Sandman series, including Endless Nights. I was introduced Gaiman's writing when I attended the CTY program (which I have more aptly named Nerd Camp) and met many huge fans of Sandman. I hold a special place in my heart for Coraline, American Gods, and Sandman. I didn't think Neverwhere was particularly fantastic, but it wasn't awful.
Entertainment . . . my favorite bands include, but are not limited to, They Might Be Giants, Our Lady Peace, U2, Caribou (formerly called Manitoba), and Led Zepplin. I think I might be falling in love with Bette Midler, but I've only listened to one of her records once, so that remains to be seen. (I am rather proud of my small but growing record collection.) My favorite author of all time is E.M. Forster, but David Sedaris and Neil Gaiman are also pretty far up there. I'm not a big one for poetry, but I enjoyed a book of Tennyson's works. Oh, yes, I also want to be Anne Shirley when I grow up. I don't watch TV with the exception of anime that I purchase, though I do prefer manga. Fruits Basket is the best thing to happen to my mood and self-esteem ever.
I am loquacious . . .
FINALLY: My favorite Endless . . . the issue here is that I'm a teenage girl, so my hormones tell me that the new Dream and Desire are by far the best. The artwork says Delirium does beat all. Personalities? Death and Destruction (I prefer to think of him as Creation, but that doesn't start with a D!) are awesome. I wish we KNEW more about Despair. I don't want to know anything about Destiny. Overall, I would say Morpheus is my favorite, except sometimes the angsty emo thing gets on my nerves. And it would seem Daniel Dream will develop to have smaller doses of angst. Less angst = me more happy = the new Dream all the way.
And that's me in a (coco)nut shell.
I completely recognize this person. She's a little bit more adamantly geeky than I am now ... but not THAT much more. She's definitely more open than I am now. She thinks she's fascinating, while I now have a creeping fear that I, like most people, am terribly dull. But aside from these little signs of immaturity, the basic person is someone I completely recognize.
Which is VERY WEIRD. Because I've, you know, gone to college and stuff. Shouldn't I be some radically different person? I have a new favorite color, and a new favorite farm animal, but I still obsess over things like my favorite color and farm animal. I have approximately the same favorite books, give or take a few (shouldn't this be very different?) and the same favorite anime, with a few additions.
If you'd asked me yesterday how I thought current me compares with high school senior me, I'd tell you that they were completely different. High school senior me wasn't really excited about college. High school senior me felt like she always had something to prove. High school senior me kept up this phony facade of being "cute" and "giggly" and a "prude" etc. just so she could be a fairy girl, the cute one in her group of friends. Now I don't give a flip who I am in my group of friends -- I let me just be, and change, instead of casting myself as one thing or another. Even if it was faked, I had a strong sense of identity, which is mostly gone now ... at 22, I realize just how young I am, and I'm experimenting with ideas of myself.
Yet something fundamental has not changed. Maybe having a name as distinctive as "Lily" does that to you. There's a part of me that will always be this particular "Lily." Unless I get Alzheimer's. But until then, I think I'll try to figure out what that "Lily" is.