I dont feel like myself anymore, where did the fun me go? why has this boring person taken her place and when did i allow it to happen? I don't want to be here anymore. I just want to be me, but i don't even know who that is.

its so cold again, guess whos back at work......

It breaks my heart to here your words, it tares me up inside. One more mark to uncover them all, and to bleed them all out again. my head is screaming, screaming, trying to get an explanation out of my brain. my head tells me your wrong and that it shouldn't matter. but my heart wants it all to be ok again. but it can't. it can't not after this. ( Read more... )

Empathy

Empathetic eyes,

Open arms.

Painful goodbyes,

Flashing alarms.

Sickening pain,

Unworthy guilt.

Energy drain,

Walls built.

Condemning silence,

Questionable rage.

Unguarded fence,

Rewritten page.

Ghostly soul,

Disappointed heart.

Villainous role,

Mistaken start.

Forgive me blessed for I have sinned.

The heart was taken, tied and pinned.

So ya typing isn't it interesting i really really hate getting mad but pfft... tid rather annoying when people are being redundant, stuck up assholes that have rather large sticks shuved up their asses. I say i should murder them all. But ya this entry really has no point but to fuel or burnout (what ever yous ee it as) my energy and anger. It is ( Read more... )

Still alive, still breathing, not like people care.....

MY TONGUE IS FINALLY PIERCED!!!!!!

Gah, just get it the FUCK OVER WITH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Everything gained as been lost.

And theres only one way to solve the problem.

I think i will.

I don't want to turn back now.

On everything or anything.

One more time

Deep enough to carve it all away.

Crying and dying inside,
Without your pressence near.
Emotions, continually slide,
Constant like the forgotten tear.
Hands, nervously shaking,
Waiting and wanting words to say.
Heart, yearns and aching,
Pain, constantly in play.
Fearing the life thats gone,
Sitting, watching the endless dawn.