Goodbye To Love
So i did it. I made an appointment to see a therapist. Well, apparently she isn't really a therapist, she prescribes medicine, but my mom said that the doctor would see me and decide if i should have therapy or if medications will help me. I have to admit, it's a load off, knowing i could be able to fix things. I'm just nervous about the whole walking into the office thing. That's going to kill me. I'll probably sit in my car for a while, and then walk nervously towards the building...
But it still makes me feel weird. i know therapy is a good thing, and it will make me a healthy adult (which i am not) And it's better to go now before things really break down, and figure things out now.
And i'm almost in tears again. Because i'm alone. I've really never felt this alone before, and it sucks. It's not just a literal alone feeling either. It's an emotional one. I feel like i have no connection to anyone. I feel like i don't really matter to anyone that says i matter to them. I just feel so empty...
I wish i could tell you the soundtrack to how i'm feeling at this time. But then you'll think i'm suicidal or something. Or that i'm an emo kid, which i am not. I just have some emotional problems that need dealing wth, and i'm working on dealing with them.
maybe next time i'll post the soundtrack, when it's finalized and such. Just the songs that have been on my mind or played repeated for a while...
"i've never felt so hollow, i'm an old abandoned church with broken pews and empty aisles."
But it still makes me feel weird. i know therapy is a good thing, and it will make me a healthy adult (which i am not) And it's better to go now before things really break down, and figure things out now.
And i'm almost in tears again. Because i'm alone. I've really never felt this alone before, and it sucks. It's not just a literal alone feeling either. It's an emotional one. I feel like i have no connection to anyone. I feel like i don't really matter to anyone that says i matter to them. I just feel so empty...
I wish i could tell you the soundtrack to how i'm feeling at this time. But then you'll think i'm suicidal or something. Or that i'm an emo kid, which i am not. I just have some emotional problems that need dealing wth, and i'm working on dealing with them.
maybe next time i'll post the soundtrack, when it's finalized and such. Just the songs that have been on my mind or played repeated for a while...
"i've never felt so hollow, i'm an old abandoned church with broken pews and empty aisles."