but i cant forget the tears in her blue eyes.
note to self: mcdonalds is never a good idea. i would not reccommend that establishment to the starving children in india. blah. more importanly, jarhead is a good movie. i learned that tonight. i also learned not to let puppies jump from your lap when seated on a bench one foot or higher off the ground. it just does not end nicely. especially not for the poor limping puppy. tonight was excellent. tomorrow is looking boring & uneventful. what else can i say? i turned in my application to newbury comics. tomorrow, im calling the icing. i really need a job within the next two weeks or else im screwed moneywise. another event which may or may not occur within the next two weeks is the triumphant return of my precious car. i miss my freedom. its like my life is on hold. not that im sociable anyway, but i cant even go out on a whim to think & get some air without begging my parents for their car. its sad. im nineteen. i have to remind my parents of that little fact almost every day. theyre still stuck in "my daughter is sixteen & is not capable of making basic every day decisions & therefore must have no freedom" mode. i have to lie to their faces daily, just to get somewhere or leave for awhile. & nobody likes that. its no way to live, all lies.
anyway, im in the mood for writing, so step back & goodbye.
okay, scratch that. survey time. madness!
1) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: im too lazy to find a book in my sisters mess of a room. please omit.
2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
glass of coke
3) What is the last thing you watched on TV?
sex & the city
4) WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time it is:
11:34
5) Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
12:07...oops
6) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
nothing.
7) When did you last step outside? what were you doing?
about twenty minutes ago, mcdonalds.
8) Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
myself being fat at mcdonalds.
9) What are you wearing?
black stretch pants, a grey tshirt, brown hoodie, underwear, bra.
10) Did you dream last night?
well obviously. we all dream every night. i dreamt about various people in my family (icluding self) being shot by a band of rowdy black men.
11) When did you last laugh?
during jarhead.
12) What is on the walls of the room you are in?
im in annas. & well call it "stuff".
13) Seen anything weird lately?
i saw a person doing fifty on the highway..WEIRD.
14) Last movie you saw?
jarhead
15) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
a house.
16) Tell me something about you that I don't know.
youre just like all of the rest.
18) Do you like to dance?
yes, very much so
19) George Bush:
whatever.
20) Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
lux.
21) Now, imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
lex or damien.
22)Whats in your CD player?
placebo, without you im nothing.
23)Whats in your purse?
wallet, makeup, cigarettes, lighter, cellphone, random papers, batteries, digital camera, little bear ornament thingie that angie bought me.
24)What does your purse look like?
big, polka dotted, blue & green & white.
25)last thing you ate?
ugh. mcdonalds.
26)last words you heard?
"hi".
27)What are your plans for today?
today is over, tomorrow is looking none less than dull.
28) Ever dye your hair?
no. wouldnt. ever.
29) Have any peircing?
no. soon, my lip, i hope?
30)whats in your drive way?
red mazda miata and a black honda crv.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1) spiders
2) death
3) crowds/speeches
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
1) tj
2) andrew
3) angie
THREE THINGS I LOVE:
1) music
2) eyeliner
3) friends
THREE THINGS I HATE:
1) myself
2) people
3) society at large
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1) myself
2) the universe
3) my illness
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
1) monitor
2) candles
3) clock
THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
1) aim
2) typing
3) chewing my bottom lip
THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
1) dance
2) sleep
3) be myself
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
1) weird
2) introverted
3) me
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY LOOKS:
1) weird
2) weird
3) weird
THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
1) sing
2) talk to people i like
3) know what i want ----------MHMMMM
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1) fuck
2) shit
3) i dont know
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS:
1) unos pepperoni deepdish pizza
2) sushi
3) thai food
THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
1) how to sing (impossible)
2) relearn violin
3) relearn how to read music
THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
1) coke
2) coke
3) coke
THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
1) rocko
2) my little pony
3) garfield
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE CANDIES:
1. twizzlers
2. skittles
3. starburst
anyway, im in the mood for writing, so step back & goodbye.
okay, scratch that. survey time. madness!
1) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: im too lazy to find a book in my sisters mess of a room. please omit.
2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
glass of coke
3) What is the last thing you watched on TV?
sex & the city
4) WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time it is:
11:34
5) Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
12:07...oops
6) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
nothing.
7) When did you last step outside? what were you doing?
about twenty minutes ago, mcdonalds.
8) Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
myself being fat at mcdonalds.
9) What are you wearing?
black stretch pants, a grey tshirt, brown hoodie, underwear, bra.
10) Did you dream last night?
well obviously. we all dream every night. i dreamt about various people in my family (icluding self) being shot by a band of rowdy black men.
11) When did you last laugh?
during jarhead.
12) What is on the walls of the room you are in?
im in annas. & well call it "stuff".
13) Seen anything weird lately?
i saw a person doing fifty on the highway..WEIRD.
14) Last movie you saw?
jarhead
15) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
a house.
16) Tell me something about you that I don't know.
youre just like all of the rest.
18) Do you like to dance?
yes, very much so
19) George Bush:
whatever.
20) Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
lux.
21) Now, imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
lex or damien.
22)Whats in your CD player?
placebo, without you im nothing.
23)Whats in your purse?
wallet, makeup, cigarettes, lighter, cellphone, random papers, batteries, digital camera, little bear ornament thingie that angie bought me.
24)What does your purse look like?
big, polka dotted, blue & green & white.
25)last thing you ate?
ugh. mcdonalds.
26)last words you heard?
"hi".
27)What are your plans for today?
today is over, tomorrow is looking none less than dull.
28) Ever dye your hair?
no. wouldnt. ever.
29) Have any peircing?
no. soon, my lip, i hope?
30)whats in your drive way?
red mazda miata and a black honda crv.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1) spiders
2) death
3) crowds/speeches
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
1) tj
2) andrew
3) angie
THREE THINGS I LOVE:
1) music
2) eyeliner
3) friends
THREE THINGS I HATE:
1) myself
2) people
3) society at large
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1) myself
2) the universe
3) my illness
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
1) monitor
2) candles
3) clock
THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
1) aim
2) typing
3) chewing my bottom lip
THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
1) dance
2) sleep
3) be myself
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
1) weird
2) introverted
3) me
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY LOOKS:
1) weird
2) weird
3) weird
THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
1) sing
2) talk to people i like
3) know what i want ----------MHMMMM
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1) fuck
2) shit
3) i dont know
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS:
1) unos pepperoni deepdish pizza
2) sushi
3) thai food
THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
1) how to sing (impossible)
2) relearn violin
3) relearn how to read music
THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
1) coke
2) coke
3) coke
THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
1) rocko
2) my little pony
3) garfield
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE CANDIES:
1. twizzlers
2. skittles
3. starburst