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[amnesiaofheaven]

first day of class went smoothly. (seeing as i only had one fifty minute class). i noticed a lot of the kids in my abnormal psych class were ignorant though, & thats going to be hard for me to tolerate. i know a lot about disorders in light of recent events, & uneducated people just make me jittery & upset. i wish i knew how to speak up. i could actually come across as half-way intelligent in this class. blah. tomorrow i have english comp. 2 & developmental psych. i did all my reading & what not for those classes this morning. i think im going to like having my time occupied. i didnt see anyone i knew today (still deciding if this is a bad or good thing). i think good. i havent been very keen on socializing as of late. mostly i just see tj, which is fine. were really happy right now & i thank the stars for that. cinnamon cheesecake is heavenly. its nice to be a car slut. you got rid of my bubbles. its love. i love shoe.

enough of that.

i wish i could be really happy right now because i have all the reasons & i feel i should be, but somehow i cant get above this point. its just blah. not happy or sad. just blah, in between. i dont like it. i got a free shirt at my dbt group tonight. some lady brought in all this clothes her daughter didnt fit into. i dont think ill ever wear it. my ear is all blocked up. im tired, but i dont want to go to bed for at least a few more hours.

& im done.