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why am i so deppressed all of a sudden i was fine a bit ago, i don"t understand myself i want to cry i want to fear i want to love, yet at times i want to push: to turn up the heat a little and hope that it'll push someone to action, but sometimes asking and being gentle is an easier way to enter the hearts of men (generally speaking it sounded better though i usually deal with the other gender)i want to be despised and i want to be taken in i want people to either be all for me or all against me (now i know how God feels) well that's enough venting i suppose though i wonder why things affect me so much