High on being-in-love
Ok so I've finally come to that point where I'm so in love it's making me sick. I mean that literally, I was nauseous yesterday evening and threw up this morning, plus I've been lying awake halfway through the night.
But every time he touches me I feel elated for the rest of the day. Heck, whenever he LOOKS at me I feel elated.
I wish it wouldn't feel so good so I could say I didn't want to be in love anymore. But the feel-good in my head outweighs the feel-bad in my body XD
It's all this confusion. It's making the game interesting, but it's also making me, well, confused. And I think it goes for him as well.
I'll just see where this goes.
I have learned to just desire without requiring. See, I don't require him to love me back the same way I love him. I just want him to keep doing what he does: little signs and actions of affection and just.. ..the cheerfulness, the sweetness, the.. ..connection and chemistry. Even if it's never gonna be romance, I don't care. I genuinely don't care. Love is love, whether it's friendship or romance. And it's good the way it is right now (except the confusion) so..
I'm just gonna go with the flow. I don't want to fuck this up, it's too lovely.
But every time he touches me I feel elated for the rest of the day. Heck, whenever he LOOKS at me I feel elated.
I wish it wouldn't feel so good so I could say I didn't want to be in love anymore. But the feel-good in my head outweighs the feel-bad in my body XD
It's all this confusion. It's making the game interesting, but it's also making me, well, confused. And I think it goes for him as well.
I'll just see where this goes.
I have learned to just desire without requiring. See, I don't require him to love me back the same way I love him. I just want him to keep doing what he does: little signs and actions of affection and just.. ..the cheerfulness, the sweetness, the.. ..connection and chemistry. Even if it's never gonna be romance, I don't care. I genuinely don't care. Love is love, whether it's friendship or romance. And it's good the way it is right now (except the confusion) so..
I'm just gonna go with the flow. I don't want to fuck this up, it's too lovely.