La la la la love...
I just talked to A., my ex Swedish teacher, about the interview I have to do. Remember that I said last night that I was nervous about it? Silly me!! Why is it always like this? I’m so unwilling to make a simple phone call even if it is to someone I absolutely love and adore?! (The only people I can call without thinking about it first are my grandmother and my sisters - and my mother, but I rarely have to call her because we live together!)
Anyway, she said she was happy to hear from me, and we talked for awhile but we won’t do the interview until tomorrow. (It’ll be easier since it will only be a day between the calls!) She said I sound “so grown up” now (*lol* when was the last time we talked on the phone?! must have been ages ago!) and she said she liked hearing my voice again. Well, likewise! :) I’ve always loved her voice… because it’s her voice; so warm and… and… well, you know! I mean, I suppose I do sort of have a thing for voices, which I’m sure you’ve noticed; very often when I find myself attracted to someone I am drawn to their voice and I can go on and on about it - but I can’t find the words to describe her voice in great detail (nor do I feel the need to!). And that is in line with what I feel for her on the whole, of course: I can talk about it forever and ever but it is something that defies all explanations…
Suffice to say that I love her dearly, and I always have and I always will. But not in an “I want to marry you!” kind of way. And not in an “I want to.... with you!” either. I’ve been over that phase for a long time! Hm. With the occasional relapse, to be honest… it's not like I've never had any kind of "inappropriate thoughts" these last few years, but what can I say; I have long since accepted that there are, perhaps, or were, “gray areas” in this (and isn’t it often, where emotions are concerned?) and it’s nothing I think about (anymore) because it’s not… “important”? Like it would be if I was madly in love with her. I don't know if this makes any sense, but really, I’m just so happy that this woman is in my life, that she still cares about me after 16 years. :)
Anyway, she said she was happy to hear from me, and we talked for awhile but we won’t do the interview until tomorrow. (It’ll be easier since it will only be a day between the calls!) She said I sound “so grown up” now (*lol* when was the last time we talked on the phone?! must have been ages ago!) and she said she liked hearing my voice again. Well, likewise! :) I’ve always loved her voice… because it’s her voice; so warm and… and… well, you know! I mean, I suppose I do sort of have a thing for voices, which I’m sure you’ve noticed; very often when I find myself attracted to someone I am drawn to their voice and I can go on and on about it - but I can’t find the words to describe her voice in great detail (nor do I feel the need to!). And that is in line with what I feel for her on the whole, of course: I can talk about it forever and ever but it is something that defies all explanations…
Suffice to say that I love her dearly, and I always have and I always will. But not in an “I want to marry you!” kind of way. And not in an “I want to.... with you!” either. I’ve been over that phase for a long time! Hm. With the occasional relapse, to be honest… it's not like I've never had any kind of "inappropriate thoughts" these last few years, but what can I say; I have long since accepted that there are, perhaps, or were, “gray areas” in this (and isn’t it often, where emotions are concerned?) and it’s nothing I think about (anymore) because it’s not… “important”? Like it would be if I was madly in love with her. I don't know if this makes any sense, but really, I’m just so happy that this woman is in my life, that she still cares about me after 16 years. :)